I actually had this article on my ToDo list for months, but decided against writing it because I thought it would not be of any use to anyone, but then Robin asked me a question along those lines which obviously means that at least one person would find it useful. Oh well, I might as well write it down so that I don’t have to think about it any further.
The standard theory on how kalapas work assumes aggregation of kalapas from all kinds of sources, mostly from karmic transfers and compassion, and compression into more dense structures, a process which is very similar to what a refrigerator is doing – it compresses gas, which extracts heat from it. The spiritual analogue of heat is chaotic energy of the spiritual particles, and to compress them and remove chaos from them implies suffering, because this chaotic energy needs to be experienced by your soul and released, and here’s where up-stream kriya, the inner space and resonance techniques do their thing. Basically, they give you the tools to deal with this and not die or go crazy from the intensity of spiritual trauma, but the essential mechanism of this release of chaotic disturbance from a mass of kalapas is suffering. During this process, the question of where to get enough kalapas for the process is not something you would normally ask, because, if anything, you get more stuff on your plate than you can safely deal with, and the question is how to survive the process and undergo it safely. Essentially, the question of yogic practice and the preparation for the initiation into vajra is not even something a soul would have if it didn’t have enough “mass” to actually go through it, and at that point it’s the condition of that spiritual mass that is the problem; essentially, you are a chaotic mess and this needs to be “defragmented”, compressed and transformed. So, essentially, the issue of getting enough astral kalapas in order to undergo transformation into vajra never arises, which is why I never talked about it, having literally no reason to, since the number of people who would benefit from such a treatise is zero.
However, there’s the issue of “wielding” spiritual matter. Essentially, you can wield spiritual substance that is of a lower qualitative order than what your soul is made of. This would assume that your soul is more-less coherent, meaning that it doesn’t contain inclusions of lower energies, but let’s for the sake of argument assume a “clean” situation, and we can deal with the exceptions and complications later.
So, let’s assume your soul is made of astral matter. This means you can “wield” prana, or “work with energy” as it is usually called. If you tried to wield astral, that would end badly, because your soul would merge with the astral substance you tried to control and this would fall under the category of karmic transfer at best, if the amount you “touched” was small enough, and in the worst case your soul would lose its integrity and disperse in the larger chunk of astral substance, at which point your spiritual existence would end, at least as you know yourself.
If your soul is made of vajra, however, you can wield astral matter quite safely. You can create astral beings, you can destroy them, you can create complex astral structures, but you can’t wield vajra; basically, you can’t create a vajra object unless you somehow split your soul in two, which is something you would want to avoid at all cost, and I don’t know how that could even be done. However, at some point you evolve enough to be able to wield vajra, which means your soul substance is of an even higher order. Normally, one would be able to wield blue vajra if they attained core-density of Shivaratri, the black vajra, or the black night of Shiva, the black aspect of the “atmic level”, as this is known in some literature. I am pretty sure that the beings who evolved into the other, “white” polarity of the atmic level can also wield blue vajra, since their power level is the same, but different in a male-female way. I’m also not sure that the female Gods actually perceive this as “wielding vajra”, because from their perspective they might just exist on that level and witness blue vajra conform to their will. As I said, it’s similar to a male-female difference, and at that level you will simply recognize what’s natural for you and what feels good, and you’re also not going to be doing the same things the same way in all situations, because creating things of beauty might have different requirements than fighting evil, in a sense that one would strive to attract things to oneself, and the other will concentrate willpower in order to overcome and transform the present state.
So, let’s summarize. In order to wield a substance, you need to be initiated into a qualitative level above it, and by “initiated into” I mean “made of”. However, wielding prana and astral (citta) is pretty easy to imagine, since there’s prana and astral everywhere around us. It’s easy to imagine a compressor pulling in the air from the environment and filling a metal container. However, it’s not like there’s an abundance of vajra-matter floating around so that you can just reach out for it and will it into action, and that’s where we come to the actual point of this article. When you wield a substance, you call it into existence, ex nihilo, or ex brahman, if you will. Those kalapas were not there previously, because if so you’d have to do a karmic transfer/purification to integrate them and conform them to your will, which is a different process, one you would go through in order to grow your soul. No; if you wanted to wield vajra, vajra would manifest from the creative potential of God, which you tapped into. Basically, aspects of the Absolute would manifest in the Relative, existing at the energetic level you are able to invoke and wield.
This, of course, implies that in order to wield Shivaratri, or the white equivalent of the Goddess, you need to be made of a substance at least one qualitative level higher.
I don’t know if I can even describe what the order of magnitude of these things is, since there are no human words for any of this; I’m basically making up the language and ideas as I go. However, imagine a very big cloud of gas. That’s citta, the astral substance. Now imagine it compressed to the point where the nuclei of the gas particles touch, and the protons beta-decay into neutrons, and the entire star of normal matter is compressed into an object few meters across made of “neutronium”, where the stuff itself is actually a giant vortex of quark-gluon plasma, essentially one big neutron, only made of many quarks and gluons, and not just neutrons tightly packed together. Let’s say this is a good analogue for vajra; blue vajra specifically. That thing is already unimaginably dense and powerful, like liquid lightning with the density so great that lead and gold feel like gas in comparison, and so hard that diamond feels like air. Now imagine millions of such neutron stars compressed into a huge supermassive galactic black hole, where you need a lot of blue vajra to get even a tiny particle of Shivaratri. OK, now imagine “that something” which wields Shivaratri like it’s smoke.
Yeah. It’s not something that relates to the practical experience of many beings, which is why this is probably the most useless article I ever wrote.
Can you explain what you mean by karmic transfer here?
You absorb karmic substance that was not previously a part of your soul. That's more-less it, the rest is about how that works and what requirements need to be met.
It caught my attention because I got to a certain stage and it happened to me, quite a bit of it, and it has been quite problematic. Is regular practice sufficient to dissolve karmic transfers? I'm finding if I miss a few days of it due to life stuff things start to flare up again in quite inconvenient ways
Essentially, once it's integrated in your soul core, it behaves like any low-energy substance that needs to be dealt with – suffer through the trauma contained in its disturbance, and raise the overall level of your spiritual body with spiritual practice. Absorbing other people's junk in order to grow your soul doesn't sound glamorous, but it's a tried and true practice.
Well at least there is a purpose to it, that is comforting– I've been thinking perhaps I was just a dumbass and absorbed it from a jerk out of being overly empathetic and just made some big mistake
Well, one does not necessarily preclude the other.
Also, being adversely influenced by other beings' energy is not a karmic transfer, it's better described as an energetic compromise at your disadvantage, which you made because you were for some reason not able or willing to stand your ground and resist.
I think both happened actually… after a really intense ego death or some such experience the karmic transfer happened following a sort of merge/ possession experience, which confused me because the experience of karmic transfer seemed negative. Yet it happened directly after a very elevated spiritual experience and initiation of some kind. So it makes sense that it happened for some kind of benefit. Thanks for the validation. I just felt compelled to check your blog after doing my daily Shiva mantras and meditation on Him–I asked Him to show me what is going on with the karmic transfer problem I've been having then, voilà >D
Is karmic transfer possible only if both parties agree?
No, far from it. In fact, you might kill something that attacks you and absorb its karmic mass. Alternatively, you can get lost in the global zeitgeist or something. It's a complicated mess, but it's a mess with rules. Basically, if something/someone offends against you, it yields a part or whole of its sovereignty and inviolability in your favour, which btw is an excellent reason not to hurt or offend others.
Errr, OK, but that doesn't work as expected, at least to me, because, if I got it right from your example, transgression of that rule made by SK and its servants up til now should be more than enough to hold them and every sovereign right on anything they have by balls so there must be that just one more thing i.e. exact date of transfer of the ownership of this creation into your hands that's preventing the execution of that rule to the conclusion?
As I said, he was an expert at evading those issues. He either had you sign off your rights, or arranged a situation so that everything is your fault.
Sećam se da je Buda rekao da su svi karmički agregati nestabilni, a i ti si slično pisao, koliko se sećam. Da li to znači da je svima, koji nisu inicirani u nešto više, opstanak diskutabilan?
Da; to je razlog zašto sam svoje učenike tamo krajem devedesetih gurao da se požure.
Jel to važi i sada? Recimo, neko se trudio, vežbao, a opet se nije inicirao, ili jeste delimično, šta se dešava?
Ovo sad su tako loša vremena da je najveći uspjeh ne propasti.
Ali da ti odgovorim na pitanje, ne znam kolika je razina opasnosti u kojoj se nalaze osobe koje nisu inicirane u vađru. Vjerojatno je stvar jako individualna, ali s ovom količinom agresivnog globalnog astrala, recimo da nikome takvome ne bih mogao reći da je siguran dok nije gotovo.
I forgot to write down the main issue with that, and I'm doing it in English so that everybody will understand. Souls that are not initiated in vajra are essentially "soft" and prone to intermixing with all kinds of energies of this world, essentially they form attachments and intermixtures. When this world is shut down, those attachments and intermixtures will either tear off parts of astral souls or destroy them altogether. If you think the process of shutting down a deadly trap is going to be postponed or outright cancelled just because you're in it and in mortal danger, you're not understanding the situation correctly. I am the one who will likely have to sign off on this order and I will do it without a second thought. If this ends badly for any of you, it means you didn't take the warnings seriously, you fucked around, and you found out.
Sanat Kumar's main bet was that he will bind so many souls' destiny to this world that the automatic shutdown after the passage of the time period he'd been given will be postponed/cancelled. God's answer to that was, apparently, me, and I've been dismantling this thing quite successfully. I found evidence of many souls that died here, and were completely destroyed. I found evidence of discarnated souls that were "anchored" to this place by elements of their souls that were held hostage here, and I found a way to free them. I found remnants of dead souls here that powered the mechanisms of attraction, attachment and all kinds of crap in this world. Those now belong to me, as I released them and there are no living claimants. I also found souls that willingly collaborate with Satan in his plans, and they will share his fate.
Like falling elevator cutting you in half because you are trying to reach for “important stuff” in it instead of letting go and get the hell out.
I had a weird moment not long ago. I looked at the mirror and even though I recognized the face, it wasn’t me.
Consciousness was detached and did not self identify with flesh in the mirrror.
This is when I realized how powerful and how dangerous these identifications are, starting from body and expanding through desires and emotions.
Soft, gaseous souls intermixing with world stuff – gotta love your analogies, making things clear in a world made of smoke and mirrors.
A very good analogy.
Yeah, I’m stuck in previous article trying to figure out ways in which I’m imposing myself on this world
However your analogies do paint unexpectedly clear image in mind.
The problem with Satanism isn't imposing yourself on the world. Jesus and Buddha imposed themselves on the world quite successfully. No, the problem with Satanism is trying to drive the car when you're 2 years old, you can't reach the controls, you don't know what you're doing, you don't know how the car works, what the rules of the road are, you don't have a driver's license, and you're also blind and deaf. Basically, it's a combination of ignorance and lack of humility, which makes you think you can do everything and be in control of your life, when you don't know who you really are, how and why you ended up here, what's the point of this place, what's the point of your life, and generally you don't see or know jack shit. Which, btw, is why I consider it a teenage philosophy, because that's how teenagers think. They just woke up here and now they think that everybody before them is a stupid rock, they are the first ones to think of anything, including sex, and so on.