Unimaginable

I’ve been shown some things recently, and it got me thinking.

There are things that are unimaginable, but you can at least have some idea about them. Let’s say it’s like the aleph-0 infinity, the cardinality of N. Basically, the set is infinite, but the numbers themselves are something you can get your head around. It’s a conceivable, imaginable infinity. However, then there’s the aleph-1 infinity, the cardinality of R, where there’s a recursive infinity of elements between each element. That’s much harder to get your head around, but still conceivable and imaginable.

And then there are things where your brain just can’t do anything about them and fucks right off.

People think they can invent some paradox to disprove God’s omnipotence, such as “can God make a stone so heavy even He can’t lift it?”, like ha ha, if he can make it he can’t lift it so he isn’t omnipotent. However, God can trivially do it, just spawning a Universe-type with broken logic, or manifesting multiple persons that are God, of which one can create and the other one can’t lift, the way God can manifest one person that creates Universes, another that can die on a cross, and another that is the omnipresent transcendental source of blessing and guidance, where the Christians got it wrong only in assuming there are only three. That’s actually quite easy to understand. And then you get to things like God-person remaining at peace, seeing that it is good, and Goddess-person meditating on the God-person who sees that it is good, and She manifests that which is good recursively throughout Creation, manifesting dharmas, Gods, Buddhas, Bodhisattvas, Dakinis and so on, and that’s the Tandava dance, the golden flame dynamically and recursively burning things in and out of existence backwards/forwards in time, across possible existence-types, creating and discreating worlds. My mind broke when I tried to understand whether that would un-create things that I now perceive as extant, and would I remember them if that were so, and whether creating the ultimately good eternal outcome means creating things like Satan, or are they just allowed to do their thing because all that evil either doesn’t matter, or it actually creates conditions where God’s supremacy can fully be manifested, and when that happens, will all the evil never have happened, or will the bubble of Time merely pop in the hand of Eternity?

It feels so close.

 

America

I’ve been listening to a song and the lyrics made me think… there is a country where a poor street kid can grow up to become the President of the most powerful country in the world.

That country is the Russian Federation.

🙂

Tariffs

Trump introduced those super high tariffs on every country America is in trade deficit with, which, essentially, means every country.

As a result, those countries are going to introduce reciprocal tariffs on America, which translates into a trade war.

What’s going to happen next is global disentanglement of supply chains based on toxicity. But more directly, some things are going to get more expensive. Expecting them to get more expensive, people will buy the existing stock quickly, and the manufacturers are going to stop supply until the pricing is figured out. This means both scarcity and high prices.

So, obviously, during the weekend I looked into the stuff I will have to buy in the next six months to a year, overlapping with the stuff that’s going to get more expensive within that timeframe, and as a result I bought two Apple laptops. Biljana needs a replacement for her Intel 16″ Macbook Pro from 2019, so she’s getting a 16″ M4 Max Macbook Pro. My 13″ M1 Macbook Air is also due for replacement because I broke the tab key and my eyes aren’t what they used to be so I got myself the 15″ M4 Air, but this time I got 24GB of RAM because 8GB was limiting. Essentially, I just flushed my shopping list for the year because I see no benefits in waiting.

So, yeah, my prognosis for this is that the economy will go down, prices will go up, availability of things will go down, and the general standard of living will be degraded across the West. Also, I expect wars to get much worse, and quickly. Buying laptops is not what you would normally do in those conditions, but I’d rather replace failing hardware now when it’s merely preventative maintenance, than later when it might be a serious problem.

Bad light

In photographic theory, we are normally taught to avoid harsh light, that casts hard shadows and creates washed out colours; essentially, avoid the middle of the day, especially if it’s not cloudy. It makes sense, however it is all relative to the purpose. Sure, if you want to shoot portraits outside, either create your own light or avoid such conditions. Also, if you want to shoot landscapes, better stick to early morning or sunset, where light has warm colours and creates all kinds of subtle transitions in the clouds and on the ground.

However, if you want to take pictures in the city, harsh midday light with hard shadows and reflections in the glass might be exactly what you want. I actually prefer the harsh but almost horizontal light before the sunset, almost at the golden hour, because it’s easy to find motives where the light shines through leaves or grass or whatever, and makes everything glow as if the light comes from within.

It doesn’t work that well when the light is vertical, so high noon is to be avoided still, but there’s still that period when the sun is low enough that it passes through flowers and leaves almost horizontally, but strong enough to create light that would conventionally be deemed too harsh for photography. However, if you use sun the way you would normally use a lightbox, to pass light through almost-transparent things in order to make them glow, that would work just fine.

As for the shadows, sometimes I actually want them, and the light that makes them is the actual subject of my photo, and the thing formally chosen as a motive is chosen merely to showcase it, and has no particular meaning as such. The fact that I take pictures of flowers or pine cones or leaves doesn’t mean that I particularly care for them; they are merely elements I use to portray atmosphere and feeling.

Sure, light sometimes casts harsh shadows, and for some types of photography you want to avoid that; portraits, for instance. You don’t want shadows on your model’s face. However, if light and atmosphere are the subject matter, sometimes shadows are what you actually want, and they are what makes the picture.

So, there might be no such thing as bad light; only bad light for certain things. Some photographers consider blue sky and a clear day terrible conditions for landscape photography, because one tends to create boring “postcards” in such conditions, instead of the mood and character you get from the clouds and so on. I kind of agree, but to me it only means you need to get more creative and dismiss the easy shots everyone would get first; take those pictures just to get them out of your system and delete them later, but once you get past the obvious, you might get all kinds of ideas about things to shoot in harsh light and a washed-out hazy blue sky.

Beauty and ugliness

Yesterday I finally took that picture of the little St.Luke church and the nice new house nearby that fit very nicely in the landscape, from the road above. I’ve been planning to do something about it for years already but the vantage point is such that you can take the shot only with a telephoto, and since I didn’t have one I planned on sending a drone, but I didn’t want to disturb people with it in season, and out of season it was either cloudy or windy, and so for one reason or another it always got postponed.

The crow on top of the church is a nice accidental detail that made me chuckle due to symbolism. 🙂

It feels nice to check those boxes.

I also went to the nearby abandoned hotel that went to ruin after some succession failure after the breakup of Yugoslavia, and the sight is horrifying, because it didn’t just go to ruin like Pripyat, because it was abandoned. No; the locals systematically broke every piece of glass, every piece of furniture, spray-vandalised the walls, and even brought in old car tyres and who knows what other waste to dispose of here. It looks as if the Orcs came and made a point in destroying everything and making it as ugly as possible in a manifestation of their consciousness and choices.

It doesn’t look post-apocalyptic, in a sense where nature takes over human cities after humans are gone. I’ve seen such places, where the nature reclaims its own and the feeling is always calm, restful and beautiful. No, this is not like that; there’s a Mad Max post-civilisation look to it, the way things must have felt after the fall of Rome, where the barbarians plundered everything that wasn’t bolted to the walls, and then set the rest on fire, or scrawled some illiterate nonsense on the walls, smeared shit on temple altars, and then gradually used stone from old buildings of forgotten meaning to build their unsophisticated primitive stuff.

That’s why I felt the symbolism of that crow on the church so strongly, as if it were a sign.