People often implicitly assume that when things take an unpleasant turn in this world, that it’s an aberration, a wrong that needs to be righted. However, according to both Buddhism and Yoga, things going wrong is normal here. If you want to attain buddhahood, you are swimming against the current, trying to calm natural fluctuations of the mind, and fight against the nature of this world. This world is designed to be as bad a place as can exist and still allow souls to be bound to it, and human body is a very poor vehicle for the soul. For all intents and purposes, it’s a vicious animal bound by instincts that almost always go against one’s better angels, and you need to be constantly in control, or the waters will close above your head as you are pulled in. This is not a cheerful prospect, of course, but it’s not intended to amuse you or lift your mood, but to describe things as they are. In fact, it is my opinion that the optimistic worldviews, that tell you that it is normal for things to be great, will actually make you feel terrible, because they will make you think that things going wrong is somehow your fault, and you will feel both guilty and ashamed for what might appear as your personal failure. The truth, however unpleasant, will lift his burden from you.
Catholics have a term for one of those terrible things that seem to be designed into the world – they call it “the dark night of the soul”. It is a state where a saintly person, through no fault of their own, is separated from the presence of God, while Satan and the worldly forces are allowed to tempt, test and molest them. This seems to be so common, it’s a rule of the world rather than an exception: it might be one of those things God conceded to Satan, allowing him to test souls here, according to the original contract, and a saint who is constantly in the presence of God seems to defy this rule. Of course, God is allowed to have a presence here and to be able to argue His point, because that too is part of the test, but God is not allowed to prevail by offering such an overwhelming and constant support to those who had chosen Him, that all further tests provided by the Prince of this world are made to look insignificant. The tests must be real, and in order to test someone really highly initiated and holy, and in order for the test to be valid, they need to be brought to a very real breaking point. Forty days of fasting in a desert, followed by temptations by Satan, remember? But compared to what some others had, this looks very easy. Some had decades in a spiritual desert, separated from any kind of a transcendental vision, having to rely only on their intrinsic nature in order to overcome the entirety of hell conspiring against them.
I once heard an interpretation of the “dark night” as a depression. This is completely false. The dark night of the soul is not a depression, it’s what humans call being human. It’s the existence separated from the vision of God, devoid of transcendental experiences, but immersed in the world and the senses. Yes, what a saint calls a dark night of the soul, humans call human life. So, while the condition itself is not depression, to a saintly person it can indeed cause depression, but this is not helpful in any way and is to be avoided, because nobody is going to pull you out, and depression causes damage you’ll eventually have to fix, on your own.
It’s interesting that only the Catholics had sufficient wisdom and experience to recognize this phenomenon, although I am quite certain that it is not limited to their membership. The rest, probably, think it signifies some personal failing, a spiritual fall, a sign of being impure and unworthy of God’s presence, and this is why I said that optimistic and positive worldviews can actually cause suffering, because if you don’t understand that such conditions are a necessary part of worldly existence and not a sign of personal failings, it will actually add to your misfortunes.
People reading my books and articles are usually under a misapprehension that I must be in some kind of an ecstatic trance, either constantly or at least while I produce such spiritual artefacts, but they couldn’t be more wrong. I have been enduring a “dark night” ever since 2007 or something like that (I don’t precisely remember); one of the “guys up there” showed himself to me, apologized that they will have to keep the distance until the very end because it is necessary (I didn’t quite understand the reason at the time, but it had something to do with the open fight against Satan, that I started around that time) and went away. I didn’t think much of it then, because I had no idea that it will be decades, and not, for instance, months. The strongest texts I ever wrote were made after that point, from the position of me whirling up spiritual substance from the human position in order to reach what has been taken away from me. Some of those texts were written during sickness or karmic transformations that include terrible suffering. It’s all incredibly unpleasant even with the more-less good knowledge of what’s going on; if I had to endure it while thinking it’s all my fault, that I must have done something to cause it because I live in a perfect world made by perfect God and everything bad that’s going on here must necessarily be my fault, it would have been much worse.
You see, it seems that one of the rules of this place says that anyone hostile to Satan that is incarnated in this place, who intends to undermine his rule and defeat him, can have no help from God, in a sense where he would be guided from above in his actions, or be spiritually maintained by God’s presence that would help him endure. No – those fighting him have to do so in a desert, without “food and water”, without hope or encouragement, using only their own human resources. Satan also has some limitations – he can’t, for instance, directly kill his enemy, because that’s an instant loss. He can, however, go about it in indirect ways – “inspire” other humans, for instance, marking his enemy with something the Romans called “aquae et igni interdictio”, barring anyone from giving access to water or fire to the excommunicated person under a threat of death penalty. This is done using various “scripts” of the world, in order for the order to kill not to be traceable to Satan – it’s cloaked as a command to “not support enemies of the Lord and the good worldly order He installed”. Also, if the saint made fatal mistakes while under misapprehensions caused by Satan fighting back, that would be too bad. If other souls were persuaded by Satan to fight against such a saintly person, thinking that by doing so they are serving God or something, that would also be too bad. Those seduced and deceived souls would of course get all the karmic punishment for such an act, which would also be too bad (insert animated gif of Muttley snickering).
Basically, an open fight against Sanat Kumar, while incarnated here, is designed by the intrinsic rules of the system to be a death penalty by withdrawing all support from the system, and invoking all kinds of hostility from everybody that is in service of Satan. This is a self-defence mechanism built into the word-illusion, and in normal conditions it dooms any attacker. Historically, the effectiveness of this was such that Sanat Kumar got complacent, and, when things didn’t immediately work in my case, he got nervous and eventually made a mistake. It happened to have significant consequences for him. However, the things he set in motion remain in motion until the scripts receive a contravening command from the person in command. If this seat is vacant, a valid command can’t be issued.
Basically, what Satan tries to do to his enemies here is layered – first, try to deceive and seduce, to get them to willingly join their power with him. Second, try to cause them to make mistakes, so that they get in deeper trouble, and also have nobody else to blame. Third, deceive other souls to be an instrument of evil – this is a double whammy, because if those souls end up destroyed, that’s all par for the course. Fourth, deny support from the world system, deny access to resources and energy of the world, deny access to God. In my case, and I think in my case alone, he had to tweak and micro-manage this last one, because things didn’t seem to work – for instance, there didn’t seem to be any apparent result from cutting my connection with God, because I am God, for all intents and purposes – mani padme, if you will. I just don’t have transcendental vision and power. Also, he cut me away from means of earning money (which is very deadly here), and very successfully sabotaged all my business plans, however I saw a hole in the script-logic and exploited it: if people just gave me money, without promise of anything in return, and without me directly asking for it in such a way that it would be a transaction, that would work. Basically, if they volunteered, and I shrugged, this would go under the radar.
What does this say about me, again? That I’m obviously not quite human? True. However, what absolutely nobody seems to understand is that this means that my capacity for suffering far exceeds that of a human – or, surviving prolonged, extreme spiritual agony, at least. I can suffer much more, and for longer, without going insane, evil, atheist or simply dying. Basically, I wasn’t nailed to a cross, because that’s merely one bad afternoon. No – I had the maximum level of suffering that I can possibly take, which in my case is caused by being separated from God, and that was extended for decades. The condition Jesus was in on the cross, immediately before death, where he lamented that God had forsaken him, couldn’t endure it, and died? That moment is every moment of my day, every day. Only I don’t get to die.
That is the condition in which I wrote all of my best work; and I would take my suffering over the greatest joy the entire mankind derives from this world – every single time, every single instance, because in order to be able to truly suffer, you need to miss something, and in order to miss it, you need to be there, in a way. This is why “dark night of the soul” is sort of a misnomer; there is a different way to state this: “the light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it”.
How can a higher dimension tolerate a system in which the owner of the world sets things up to the level of personally condemning Jesus to death so that the owner of the world is not guilty in his film studio? What kind of a perverted system is that and who thinks it will be accepted without consequence?
What, let Pilate give the verdict based on the verdict of the priests and all packaged up at the end as being at the will of the masses?
And Jesus can be denied as an achievement by the system of this world?
Or is the next trick in the game, Jesus to be the way out of this world if anyone can get it right, and Satan to add some new signposts and scripts so that is an easier way to get a fresh bodhisattva than follow Jesus path?
What is this place? A hole without any limits? Is this the level of a film studio where the director can do whatever he wants? If humans as vehicles are deliberately misled like animals then the malicious owner of this world is to blame.
Who is next in charge?
Or should we respond with love?
Does not everyone have limited resources here? Should everyone capable of seeing the matter, consciously be beaten to death?
Didn’t the Buddha supposedly say “Mara I see you!” ?
Terrible things are possible, and legal (in a very parsimonic sense of the word), if you split them into many segments or aspects, judge each aspect on its own merit disregarding context, and perform each segment by a different person that is aware of only their own role and is ignorant of the whole. Also, terrible deeds are possible in ignorance, and it’s actually hard to condemn one in those circumstance.
However, God is not stupid, and the fact that some things can’t be proven under very specific rules and in very specific terms doesn’t mean that God is unaware of what’s going on, who’s doing what, and who’s pretending not to know.
What am I talking about? For instance, person A connects a bomb to an electric detonator activated by a switch. This person thinks they are merely doing an experiment, and nobody will be harmed. The person is then told to leave.
The second person doesn’t know anything about the bomb, and is told to put a chair on a box. The person does that and leaves. The third person is told to put the switch on the seat and cover it with a pillow, and the explanation is that the switch will turn on the light in the room, and that this is an experiment. The fourth person is told to invite the victim to take a seat in the room and wait.
The victim sits on the chair and the whole thing explodes and the victim dies.
Who is at fault? The order-giver can defend himself by saying that he was merely testing whether people will actually be stupid enough to just follow orders without question, and say that he never expected them to actually be followed and that he was certain that someone will refuse or question. Every other person was dealing with such a small segment of the murder scheme, that they couldn’t be truly culpable. The one making the bomb didn’t activate it, or mean to. The one masking it didn’t know that it was a bomb, or that someone will be killed. The one inviting the victim to sit and wait had no idea. The only evidence of a crime is the mind of the order-giver, and there are ways to hide this. However, if that person forgets himself even for a fraction of a second and remembers the scheme, culpability is instantly established and the karmic axe falls.
Asimov actually described something similar in one of his books about robots: a robot can actually break the first law and kill a human. All you need is ignorance and separation of an act into multiple, individually harmless, segments. For instance, one robot is told to take a bottle of milk, and put some unknown compound into the milk. The robot is told that the goal is to observe how the compound interacts with the milk, and to be sure nobody drinks it, he should mark the bottle. He is then told to leave the room.
The second robot is told to enter the room and remove the stain from the bottle of milk and return it to the fridge so that it wouldn’t go bad and harm the human.
The third robot makes breakfast for the human in the morning, using the milk from the fridge, and the human dies.
So, a human being died and neither of the three robots broke the first law, technically speaking, because there is an implicit clause in the first law: “to his knowledge”. A Robot must not perform an action that will, to his knowledge, be harmful to a human being, and he must not refrain from acting if that, to his knowledge, will harm a human being.
How did you find out that Sanat Kumar had died?
What I initially thought was that he lost higher mental functions – I couldn’t detect his consciousness anymore, but the scripts continued working, and I didn’t yet have a working theory of how those things work. I think I gave it a few years before conceding that he’s actually dead, that’s how cautious I was.
I had a crazy situation at work from 2008/2009 to 2013.
Many years before clashing with a violent psychopath who managed and ruled this world I mastered the energetics of the body. It is a functional, elegant and usable Taoistic system called microcosmic orbit presented in a book by a man called Mantak Chia.
As my energetic system was been trained for sensing the status of my surrounding, once in a dense forest something happen in a moment, my mind/consciousness instantly shift to such level that I decide to made a physical step back to check if I will go back with consciousness too. I think I was touched by some kindly entity, and that led me to the next point. I enhanced the system on my own by practicing it in a clean, isolated nature and the thing worked superbly, especially as I was still young.
I was able to fill the body very quickly with prana and then refine the loaded system further with a similar but finer finish. It really looks like you are allowing input and very subtly, instinctively directing the “whirling winds” of energy flow. The mind get silenced, the breathing rate and heart rate are lowered to an extreme, and as the internal futile dynamics are lowered, the perception of the practitioner is increased tremendously.
I had years of independent sports practice behind me so yoga/Taoist energy guidance was not my first system of disciplined practice.
This thing still works naturally, because it has a basis in the real background of the phenomenon only that I need some more time because of my older body.
Somewhere after that I go to my first job, let’s call it an administrative service. I was part of a collective, different but perceived as one of them.
As time goes by it starts to be obvious that I am very different in that working surrounding. Of course, it was not noticed by me but the Satan system start to do its job.
Many things were going parallel at that time. I started to read your articles, I meet some Hare Krishna outcasted community led by some good guy Damir. I start to think about how that man functioned spiritually inside because he was a person of good conduct and a caring person.
I knew that neither of that community people had the same mastery of energetics as I did if any of them, but I didn’t know the next coordinate for a move so I watched and participate the performance in front of me.
Then I performed some quiet intelligent homework. I do something like watching the situation from a distance. I said, ok, if there is high developed entity, a Deity, and he is somewhere. I was taking a position as a lower spiritual entity and I asked myself, when could he notice me as I am, then I changed position and ask myself what would I do in his position, and what I would consider as a point for action in his position. I saw what I needed to see and I got the next technique, not any more samadhi (atman/brahman relation), not any more body energetics, but focusing on the spiritual world and contacting that realities as much it is possible.
As I have already said, I did not know anyone other than you, with whom I helped myself strategically.
Of course, after a certain point I performed Yidam and that did its work.
The problem is, this doesn’t really come with a manual – for the most part, what I did had no precedent, nobody really mapped the system accurately before, the enemy is skilled, and I was for the most part under extreme pressure – in some cases, on the very edge of death – and it is always easier to do than it is to understand.