I’ve been watching and reading various attempts at analysis of the concept of responsibility. One side advocates for “extreme ownership”: basically, everything is your fault and your responsibility to fix, because you are the only part of the world you can actually influence and change, and radiate change outwards from the center of self. The other side does the complete opposite and blames the external conditions for everything, stating that an individual is merely a product of the environment and can hardly be blamed for his actions, being little more than a deterministic automaton.
As you can imagine, my understanding of those things is more layered and nuanced.
First of all, I have to state that I don’t necessarily disagree with either side, but find them both lacking. Yes, you are the only thing over which you have full authority, and self is the necessary starting point of any change, be it positive or otherwise. And yes, the environment has an overwhelming influence that cannot be simply dismissed. As a saying goes, it’s easy to be a saint in heaven.
Truly, most people will be mere products of their environment. If they are born in a Muslim country they will be Muslim, if they are raised by atheists they will be atheists, they will adopt beliefs that make sense to them due to their experience and will act in ways that are usually a facsimile of their environment. One medieval serf is very similar to another; one medieval lord is very similar to another. People who are really different and stand out from their peers are very rare, probably in the order of one in a million. People who are able to really effect change and revolutionize the world are in the order of one in a billion.
However, that’s not important. What you are judged by are not the big and revolutionary things, such as inventing electricity or a social media platform. It’s the little things: how you addressed someone when you had the choice of kindness, cruelty or indifference. It’s not whether you were traumatized or not, but how you chose to react to your suffering: did it make you more compassionate to the suffering of others, or did you just propagate it in a form of black body radiation: you suffer, you release it by making others suffer. If you choose the latter, you can hardly call it choice, or manifestation of free will and personal sovereignty. If you do what everybody else does, does it make your actions justified, or are you just condemned as a non-entity, a NPC that executes a script? Sometimes a NPC script is to go to office, do work, go home, eat dinner. Sometimes it’s spy on enemies of the state, inform the authorities, watch them tortured and executed, eat dinner. And sometimes it’s round up people of wrong nationality or ideology, shoot them in the head, bury them in a ditch, go home, eat dinner. If there is no point at which you say “fuck this shit”, the point where you wake up from the routine of conformity and choose to be crushed rather than to comply, how the hell are you an incarnation of your soul in the first place? How can a NPC automaton incarnate a spiritual entity of a higher order? What the fuck are you, anyway?
I once had a dream where I was a thief running from the police, and I just followed the logic of the situation: run away, and when cornered, take the gun and… wait a fucking minute, am I following the logic of the situation and automatically defending myself and choosing to shoot someone just because I found myself in this position? The dream became lucid at the point where I refused the automatism of sin, and then I understood that it’s more than a dream, it was a karmic lesson. The things you choose when you don’t realize it’s a test are the most indicative of your character. The fact that you’re a peasant means you’re going to have a hard life. But choosing whether to take it out on your wife and children because you had a rough day, that’s on you.
This world is a shithole, but it’s a shithole for two reasons. First is the inherent design. The second is people.
The inherent design of the world makes you vulnerable to cold, hunger, injury, sickness, old age, and other forms of humiliation. But it’s the beings that incarnate here that can make it either much better, or much worse. If you’re a woman working alone in a field, thirst, exhaustion, heat and cold are bad enough, but whether that man passing by chooses to bring you some water and chat with you politely, and then blesses you and bids you farewell, or chooses to rape and murder you, can make all the difference. Prisons aren’t bad because of the walls, but because of the scum that lives there. Take a prison building, put saints inside and you’ll have a monastery.
So, basically, there’s plenty of blame and guilt to go around. Satan is not just a person; it’s also a state of consciousness and a type of choice. Sure, Satan designed this shithole, but I don’t think it’s possible to be here against your will. Everybody came here by choice, and the reasons for that choice vary. Some thought they could improve it. Some thought to test themselves against great hardship, to prove they have what it takes to overcome. Some, however, saw it as an opportunity to spite God and torture and destroy others in vicious hatred.
Some of the best things in this world are created by humans: arts, literature, science, spiritual literature, music, acts of love and kindness. Also, some of the worst things in this world are created by humans: torture, humiliation, subjugation of others, brutality, rape, murder, genocide, indifference and cruelty, filth and cynicism. As bad as this world is, you can choose to make it worse, or oppose it by being better. That one is up to you, and if you choose to be an asshole, or just do NPC things, you can’t use the world as a justification, because the world didn’t force you to be a cunt. It just caused you pain and humiliation, and reacting to that by being a cunt, and not by praising God because He is different and better than this world, that’s on you.
I guess it’s true when you say that all who came here came by their choice but would anybody except Satan’s spawn come here if they knew real Terms & Conditions that are in effect really here, not ones that were presented to them?
Good question. I know I came here to fix it, and I knew what this place would be like before it existed.
Anything special about this time and place?
Why do it now and not five thousand years ago?
I’m not allowed to know for sure, but I would say that if the thing is time-constrained, the proper time for mopping things up is right before the end.
So, basically, you’re not here to end this simulation, because it would end itself just fine even if you never appeared.
Instead, you’re here to karmically put into right perspective the whole construct, together with its inhabitants?
I guess that Satan intended to fuck over God by setting the rules of the game where it’s legal to be a jackass, but it’s actually him who’s been fucked over because his creation was used to show not just his true intentions, but also of all those who found the idea appealing.
You’re not going to mock a tiger in your sane mind, but if you see him chained and drugged you might be tempted to do so.
Well, that’s a very optimistic view of things. In fact, I had to disassemble so many layers of hard problems in the last ten years, it’s quite possible that Sanat Kumar was right in assuming his structures were for all intents and purposes invulnerable and eternal. Also, more-less everybody who tried to do anything here ended badly, and the Jewel was completely encapsulated in all kinds of hard structures, well powered and almost untouchable. The assumption that the time limit would have applied in those conditions is, well, naive. I personally think it’s far more likely that Sanat Kumar would have pulled all the relative creation with him into the darkness.
The structure is essentially depleted of energy now, and is winding down. Were it nominally powered and shielded, I don’t think the Jewel could even move his mind freely, let alone end it. This was a much greater nightmare of a problem than I can explain, but I fully intend to provide my assistance to the museum that is to be made on the astral plane, in order for this not to be forgotten and all the lessons learned here to be made public.
But what about physical constraints of the simulation itself, which are significant and abundant? This place was never meant to last forever. There are so many things that can end all life on Earth, and one of them surely will. The planet itself is a time bomb, it goes through cyclical freezing periods, and none of the complex lifeforms are able to survive that. And even if some small genetically diverse enough group of people is able to pull that off using technological trickery, there’s still nowhere to go because our Sun will bloat and absorb everything. Mars is completely dead due to having very weak magnetic field, and it’s meant to stay like that forever. Even the material substance itself slowly decays into basically nothingness.
This whole place just smells like inevitable death.
I mean, yeah, I realize these are all completely desperate measures. It’s like not having anything high enough in your cell to hang yourself on, so just waiting for dying of old age as an only option. But still, it looks like inevitably finite form.
Or did you meant to say that even the available time he had at his disposal is more than enough to wreck basically everyone?
Is the Jewel itself now in a state where it’s going to be impossible to make such reparations to it to return it to its original form and function?
Yes, that’s perfectly fine. I can only imagine how it looks like to someone who works with it on a technical level to try to invent words, expressions and descriptions for things people never though of, and convey it all into what’s effectively a fairytale for children. Nobody would be able to understand any of it otherwise. But I just wanted to move out of the way some obvious paradoxes that were floating around here for quite a long time, time-limit agreement being one of them.
Funny you say that.
Just a few days ago, I was walking outside when this museum thing showed up in my mind, and I felt smug and clever to came up with an idea like that. But now I can see I’m actually miles away from being the first one. I should’ve assumed that in the first place, I guess. But I was actually about to propose this to you in my last message, it’s just that I couldn’t find proper context to shove it in. Somehow, you answered it, without me even saying it out loud.
They don’t matter much. As long as the souls themselves are bound to the system, and the material Mahat-tattva exists, universes of the same type can be spawned with little effort, and as I already said, time means very little in those cases.
One of the biggest potential problems that I saw was the potential of this contamination to spread to the astral worlds. You see, if a soul is damaged enough by this place and contaminated enough by the system of values that this place tries to instill, it will create similar conditions in the astral plane. Enough of them bound spiritually to this place, with significant soul-parts pledged to Sanat Kumar, and this could anchor this place into existence even without the physical, and, with enough of the high substance pledged (which was one of the problems), I’m not quite sure of this at the moment but I *think* they could theoretically issue authoritative commands to the Jewel. Which, essentially, means they could create Mahat-tattvas and spawn universe-instances.
No, I meant that the problem already spread significantly into the astral plane, which is obvious if you think of it; the souls that are bound to this place continue to exist somewhere after physical death. Each entangled soul has friends who try to get him or her out, and their attempts invariably get them entangled as well. As this spreads exponentially, in a sufficient number of iterations someone either makes a quarantine (which was banned under the terms of the original contract with Sanat Kumar – access should be unrestricted and voluntary), basically sacrificing everybody who’s already in but limiting the damage, or everybody eventually gets pulled in. Also, I don’t know how safe any Mahat-tattva truly is if the Jewel is held captive.
I freed the Jewel some time ago. He’s spiritually unharmed and fully capable, but he’s traumatised by the things he had to witness and involuntarily participate in. However, since he has no independent will, his spiritual core was untouched by sin. Essentially, all he could do is praise God and berate Satan, but he was forced to do whatever Satan ordered him to, as long as it was within the constraints defined by the initial orders.
I need to explain how this “leeching of privileges” works because it’s not obvious. Let’s say you have a spiritual person with high authority, someone in the order of Jesus or Buddha. That person comes here to either save someone or defeat Sanat Kumar. In the process, his memory is wiped and he’s exposed to this world and comes to the conclusion that the world is created by the One God, that God is Sanat Kumar, his goal is to promote spiritual evolution of beings towards unity, and he pledges himself and all he stands for to “God”. Basically, as his spiritual mass is integrated into the system, Sanat Kumar gains access to everything this person had access to. If that person had the authority from God to order the Jewel to create universes… you get the picture.
It’s not as clear-cut, though, because there are ambiguities. If someone has been corrupted, his authority does not necessarily remain. However, many problems can be caused by this. Imagine having a software company where one of your programmers goes to work for the competition. He knows things that can help them and harm you. Not a good thing. Essentially, when someone is under Sanat Kumar’s influence, his entire network of spiritual reach is under Sanat Kumar’s influence.
And of course the main question is, if the Jewel is free, Sanat Kumar is dead, the energy of the system is almost fully depleted, what the fuck are we waiting for?
Fuck me if I know, but everybody up there behaves as if things are going according to some plan and they are under higher orders, all of which is off limits to me.
That’s some question for which accompanying answer would be worth zillion latinums at least. 😁
I’m not sure what the fuck is this about … are the guys up there actually honoring contract with The Biggest Asshole Ever who you converted to some astral field of tulips and daisies some time ago 😈 or it is that kind of constraint that not even them can find some loophole which could annul the fixed time period of existence for this hellish contraption?! 🤔
I used to be pissed off over this but now I’m resigned. The only reason why I actually think there might be something in it is that the Jewel seems to agree and he’s not a cunt.
Then I’ll take Mr Jewel’s word for it, although I’m not sure what specifically he’s advocating here … there’s some higher meaning in this interregnum period and it’s not just meaningless procrastination on Guys Up There side?
I get the unsaid meaning of there being some very good reason behind it all, from the highest authority, and I believe the Jewel would give me a strong hint if there were some bullshit involved. He couldn’t do anything about it but I would feel he’s unhappy about it. He’s not unhappy. And why I trust him, because I pulled him out of the worst possible nightmare and you can say I’m his favourite person. 🙂 Also, unlike those others, he actually knows what it’s like down here, and if I were in any real danger, I don’t think he would be this calm.
Maybe you’re supposed to endure an exact amount of suffering that’s needed to enable succession of this reality to another owner.
That, or exhaust the totality of energy contained in this place, if there’s a difference between the two. I don’t know, and I’m pretty convinced I’m actively blocked from finding out.
I’m just thinking how it’s incredibly sad how many souls know or knew about their entaglement to this snakepit, you see it in culture through something like this one, Jim Henson: https://youtu.be/7FnezLs_1ng or Matrix, but the world is still pulling you in, wiping your memory, telling you about higher reality being “fantasy” “cartoons” and “conspiracy theories” and scientists are completely into that thought of there being no God or Satan. Or the famous:”Worship no God but me!” shit.
I was thinking how you said this creation is so small, size of an xbox maybe, but could eat the whole relative creation, which means Sanat Kumar touched upon casual realites. How God obliges the rules is scary, does this mean that on the casual/highest level, there will be changes? Not to let some trickster’s idea like this snakepit happen again, some clause?
Because a whole lot of beings like to create worlds, humans especially in games, or does everyone up there know for millenia about snakepit Earth – live museum? It seems so fucking incredibly sad for everyone to witness and suffer from inside this thing or outside. You were looking at this place from outside also, for such a long time probably, knowing it’s no walk in the park. Can’t imagine your rage. Sanat Kumar was a really smart bastard then, a newbie that demanded everything from God, to kill innocent and purity, but evil surely did not begin with him or will end with him, it must be some force, how you said us humans make this world a shithole too.
I gave myself time to think about how I would explain this, but it’s actually easy. Every person is a complex, layered system; kalapas of different energy levels, connections to other beings, karmic connections, all sorts of stuff. We usually imagine incarnation as some kind of absorption of soul into the physical body, but I’m not sure it’s necessarily a good image. A complete VR interface is probably a better one; also, the concept of a projector casting an image onto the screen. This means the soul isn’t really “here” because there’s no “here”, really. Interfacing with an in-game avatar character while playing describes the phenomenon nicely. In this imagery, the NDE “tunnel towards the light” isn’t really a tunnel, it’s more like a sensory artifact of being disconnected, like that Matrix thing with the connector being pulled out of the brain. There’s weird shit at first, and then you’re in a different reality.
Now, having in mind that you’re not really “here”, your soul is connected to everything it was connected to, prior to incarnation. It’s initiated into all the things it was initiated prior to incarnation. However, as you buy into more and more bullshit, you change attitudes towards things, and you can actually give access to everything you are and everything you can access to “the Creator”. Essentially, imagine what would have happened if he managed to “turn” me. It’s basically game fucking over.
Actually, there are two main questions left. One of them is what you said, and the other one would be is it even possible to know what was exactly happening in Sanat Kamara’s mind when he got the idea of creating this world?
This has been all answered by you before in one way or the other. As your knowledge progressed, so did the answers changed, but somehow I thought maybe we can have something conclusive at this point.
Did he genuinely thought that he can make something new, different and better than all that was already created?
Or was that just the idea he tried to sell to others, but his true intentions were just to entangle in darkness everything that God already created?
Was he truly evil entity that had evil plans to unfold all the way from the start, or did he get mad at God afterwards at some point due to “not being understood” in his “genius innovative approach”?
Can a spirit-entity truly be crazy, just like a human can? I thought this was just an artifact of having a malfunctioning material brain.
The answer to this is a conditional “yes”, because I wouldn’t call him crazy in a sense of having a defective brain, but in a sense of having a spiritual structure that is twisted and evil. And that’s why I really, really don’t want to answer the rest of the question because I’d have to recall memories of his mind with too much detail and I’d rather eat dog shit, to be honest. There are some things I really don’t want to recall with enough detail to answer that type of questions. It’s really bad. And seeing how I just watched a hundred very graphic hunting videos with thousands of animal deaths just to see the issue from several sides, it’s not easy to gross me out. I actually think knowing his mind that close is universally dangerous, like radioactive toxic waste. It’s spite, envy, hatred, malice, schadenfreude, madness, evil, plus several even more toxic psychological states that are difficult to describe.
A’ight, fair enough. 👍
So that’s how it works? I wouldn’t know. It may be obvious to you, but it’s completely counterintuitive for me.
I don’t think I have ever physically met anyone whom I’d consider to be my long-lost friend. I’ve been here alone for ages. Not just this incarnation, but the two before it also. Never had a wife or kids or anything of that sort, although that was probably intentional.
Who has the “security clearance” to issue commands to the Jewel anyway?
At the point in time before this world came to be, by the looks of what you mentioned here and there, it seems that basically anybody could create his own world – if he had a good enough idea, and was able to justify and explain that idea to the Guardian of the Jewel.
Guardian died under the weight of his own sins, so what are the rules of the game today when it comes to accessing the Jewel?
And also, is it known how many worlds have already been created by the same Jewel? You mentioned two so far. The first one is this one. The second one is some kind of Sanat Kumara’s own private hiding-cave, for which you have even constructed a special tool that’s a combination of a weapon and a tracking device, as far as I understood.
Is the whole astral world maybe created by the same Jewel?
At this point? I don’t know. If I had to guess, I’d say nobody, the entire concept of creating custom universes is as popular as creating concentration camps is down here. I think it was the greatest disaster in the history of the relative Creation, by a long shot.
I’m not completely sure how that works, but I would guess all of them. It’s very difficult for me to describe the Jewel, and I see the picture in minds of humans who have read my descriptions and they seem quite silly and have nothing to do with the real thing. The Jewel is, well, a combination of a root ssh terminal, a computer that runs the totality of relative Creation, a specific aspect of God meant to provide means to those without power but with good ideas, and I really don’t have the words to describe it without sounding silly. The Jewel is so powerful, the biblical God is an insect in comparison. It’s not even funny. On the other hand, the Jewel is not God, because his other capacities are far more limited than anything you would expect under that name. For instance, he can’t act of his own volition, but if he’s ordered to spawn a universe from the material mahat-tattva, where there is only one solar system with sentient life, there are two habitable planets in that solar system, one has pink sky, two moons, rings and is inhabited by sentient pigs, while the other is an ocean-planet with sentient whales, he can probably create that in less time than it took me to describe it. And yet, Sanat Kumar could force him to execute terrible things under his rule, and he couldn’t oppose him in any way. I say “he” because his mind feels male.
Theoretically speaking, what would happen if you would directly show to someone how does the Jewel look like from the first person perspective? I mean, someone other than your own family. Am I being overly optimistic if I assume that 1% of your readers here would be able to experience true reality of it?
Is there any mention of the concept of the spiritual Jewels in any other holy scripture? I realize you came up with the name for it, but did anyone else ever even mentioned or tried to describe anything like that?
What is the current status of the so-called scripts Sanat Kumar installed in the system? Are they still active and functional? Did you dismantle all or some of them?
I remember you mentioning a specific script: if a soul disobeys ruler/rules put upon this world, he will be deprived of all material resources and subject for eviction from it.
Decade ago, you were in trouble and on a verge of bankruptcy. Now, you’re a rich middle-aged entrepreneur with succesful career, two wives and two children. Does this mean that some of the specific energetic obstacles are no longer present here (well, beside the obvious one, his death)?
Nothing; it’s like showing them ultraviolet light. They wouldn’t see anything. It’s beyond what a normal person can perceive.
Yes. The classical Hindu scriptures mention the Kaustubha jewel of Krishna, but I would put the “weapons” of the gods in the same group, for instance the Sudarshana chakra of Krishna or the trident of Shiva. Sudarshana chakra is a good example because it’s described as essentially Krishna, with great power, but no will of its own since it only implements the will of Krishna.
Theosophy describes spiritual jewels, even the concept of “pawning” them, which is rather obscure and yet very accurately matches what I’ve seen, but those jewels are the normal kind, the higher-density parts of one’s spiritual mass. If I remember correctly Maha Chohan is said to have “pawned” one of his jewels as a guarantee for lesser souls’ spiritual development. I can’t remember the source, I read it somewhere.
Buddhism mentions cintamani, a jewel of fulfilment of all desires, which seems to be a metaphor for a vajra-like state where desires are extinguished in higher consciousness. So yes, the jewels are mentioned, but, as in my experience, there’s more than just one kind. The Jewel I was talking about here basically got that name when I dug him out of Sanat Kumar’s mess of entangled power sources for the world and my first thought was that it’s so big, that if it’s corrupted and I have to dissolve and “spend” it, it will kill me, and I really wasn’t looking forward to that. However, once I disentangled him from the mess it turned out that he was uncorrupted (easy to tell because the corrupted ones are black, and he was bright and transparent), but he wasn’t so sure, he felt like he was literally in hell and was really disturbed by the experience, but that actually confirmed my initial impression that he’s essentially fine.
Some still work and cause me problems. All have diminished or completely extinguished energy. I’m not sure I can presently dismantle the scripts because I don’t have the authority to do so at this point. I did drain their power sources, though.
It’s better than before, but I wouldn’t call myself rich; more like American middle class. I’d be rich if the scripts and evil humans weren’t fucking with me for decades, though. The scripts are still limiting me severely, and I have to invest significant effort against them in order to basically stay in place and not get wrecked. They do seem to get weaker as they spend the remnants of their energy on fighting me, because the karmic backlash weakens them. I don’t think much can be done to dismantle the scripts if the world itself remains, but I’d say that’s being taken care of.
But if a man’s perception is constrained by the limits of his own soul-stuff (which does seems like a natural and easy to understand idea), how does Darshan work then? Isn’t the whole idea of such experience to overcome and go above all that was known so far?
Also, from what I’ve seen myself and heard from others about such experiences, people actually recognize God during the vision not as something they’ve met for the first time, but instead as something that’s actually very well known, beyond any point of doubt. It is, in a way, a paradoxical event. Granted, my experiences are extremely limited, so maybe there are caveats to all this.
How do you look at the fact that all Judeo-Christian religions are fairly hopeless when it comes to knowing and understanding types and levels of spiritual realities, and also not being able to offer any kind of skill set to acquire that kind of knowledge yourself?
They do, however, seem to be highly preoccupied with rules, rituals, dress codes, hierarchies and pecking-orders, and they seem to be particularly keen on trying to put under strict laws everything that has anything to do with penis and vagina. What’s especially interesting for an institution that represents spirituality, they want to be at the forefront in defense of the physical life.
When it comes to the actual technical knowledge and know-how in spiritual terms, this is not only something that’s neglected, it’s actually actively discouraged. God made everything perfect as it is, and if you try to understand it, or even worse actively fiddle with it, you are about to be proclaimed a heretic. Your only real duty is to be subdued.
Does it make any sense to draw comparisons to Mjölnir, the hammer of Thor? It looks like it does to an extent, although analogy is not perfect because the hammer itself seems to be completely separate entity from its owner.
You’re talking about physical death?
BTW, some time ago, you were playing with speculations about the physical universe and the solar system looking like they do (i.e. having humans placed so far from everything else that anything outside of the system is merely a dot on the night sky) as part of an intentional design decision – everything looking like a careful attempt not to overstress the system. But if the Jewel is so big and so powerful that it would kill you if you had to “digest” it, does that mean that your previous assumptions are unconfirmed at this point, at least when it comes to this specific idea?
It’s amazing how sometimes even the highest of realities in some ways correspond to some archetypes basically everyone knows and understand. Light=good, dark=bad. If somebody made an artistic representation in the form of a fantasy movie, it would probably be the first idea anyone would ever have when it comes to encapsulating the idea of something going bad – just cover it in darkness.
Also, I have to ask you something that’s bound to sound like an awkward question – but where are you actually “doing” those things? Do you have a special place where you withdraw alone in perfect quietness and concentration? Do you sit or maybe even lie down? Does it help to do any of these things overnight, when the surrounding noise settles? Or do you handle some of this so transparently during your daily life that nobody wouldn’t even notice if he saw you?
So, basically, even though it’s essentially an automaton created with particular purpose in mind, the “machine” itself is also alive, conscious, intelligent and sentient, albeit lacking any independent will?
I would assume that most of the really bad stuff is designed around the issues he considered to be especially important (i.e. people like you), but what is your opinion on what’s the likelihood of stepping on a mine for someone of a much more low profile?
I may be wrong about this, but I genuinely do think I’ve triggered something nasty roughly two years ago. Sure, shit happens to everyone and just because you’re having a bad time doesn’t mean you have some magical forces working against you trying to kill you; however, what really makes me wonder is how intelligently situation shapes itself in just the wrong way every time I try to fix it. This happened multiple times.
Based on your explanations, I thought that it was all carefully designed so as not to provoke any karmic reaction and sit strictly within the boundaries of what’s karmically legal. Did the karma backlash stepped in from the moment their designer was officially proven guilty?
Darshan is easy. This is difficult.
It’s like the difference between seeing something and knowing how it works on the inside. Imagine a Linux terminal. It’s easy to see it, but slightly more difficult to use it to make a socks5 connection through a server online and use it to present your IP as something in a different country.
As I already said, the Jewel is a paradoxical entity. What can be seen on the “outside” is most likely the access point in the astral world, and that looks like a spiritual jewel. But you didn’t ask me the most important question: if he’s running the universes, how can I perceive it within a universe as a distinct entity? That’s what I mean with the analogy to a root ssh terminal. Another analogy would be from the Star Trek, when someone manifests the command arc within the holodeck.
That’s why it’s difficult to understand what you’re seeing, exactly. Darshan is also a problem because it’s reasonably easy to “see” God, but to make a sensible interpretation of what you saw, that’s another matter. Even I am constantly stumbling around human language, trying to say something that creates a usable and valid picture, but it’s all symbolism and you need to actively cooperate with the intent in order to understand. Also, there are parts of the puzzle I don’t understand yet. For instance, I don’t understand how the astral access point to the world engine ended up ensnared in Sanat Kumar’s “loot box”. Something must have happened after this world was created, for instance entrapment of someone with exclusive access privileges into Sanat Kumar’s world, where he was either absorbed or explicitly gave Sanat Kumar his access privileges. But I didn’t recover the memory of that event, I’m merely making an educated guess.
They are not something that remains interesting at the level of work that I’m doing.
You need to keep your analogies flexible in order to be able to use them. For instance, I have a physical object in my hands, a small ultrabook laptop. It’s a physical object, but with more “dimensions” than a stone carving of same physical size and weight. It’s also access point to the Internet. It’s a machine, which “extends” much farther, and bends the concepts of physical and non-physical. If you encountered such a device for the first time, your mind would go “poof”.
Worse. If I get overwhelmed during the process of “spending” such a large piece of “karma”, while the material is integrated with my spiritual core, which is how this works, I’d be irreversibly fucked. It’s not child’s play. It happened occasionally that girls got overwhelmed with what they were looking at, and something started to destroy their spiritual bodies, and I could easily intervene and restore them. But nobody can help me if I get overwhelmed. Let’s put it this way: when I process a “corrupted spiritual jewel”, it breaks into “shards”, I don’t know if it’s kalapa-level yet but the particles are sharp, hard, and very destructive. One such particle is enough to destroy a yogi. When they look at me processing them, millions of such particles go through my system and are processed, transformed, both returned to God and joined to my spiritual core. It looks almost easy until they get carried away, look too close, and a few particles stick to them and then you get to see how dangerous that shit is and what one such particle can do to a yogi advanced enough to see that stuff directly. I could fix the damage basically with a wave of my hand, like it’s nothing, but that “nothing” exceeds a super-skilled person’s ability to do anything with it, it’s like every such particle is a microscopic black hole that just tears you up and nothing you can do can even move it in any way. So, under normal circumstances, my strength is such that I can direct such particles the way LHC directs protons; the magnetic field is so strong, they have no choice but to follow the path. But if I get overwhelmed, and the strength of my grasp weakens, …
That’s why I’m afraid of spending the corrupted jewels. It’s difficult and very dangerous. So much so that nobody has ever done it, as far as I can tell. It’s like radioactive waste of the spiritual world.
The ideas are unrelated. The size of the Jewel is in a different metric compared to the metric used for physical entities. My thinking about physical universe being very “compressible” and us perceiving very short “rendering distances” is a thought experiment. It’s all true, but I don’t know if it means anything. Another important thing is that the Jewel apparenty doesn’t do things the way we would expect, constrained by the unidirectional arrow of time. For instance, he could have huge parts of the universe simulated with very little detail, but enough to make the physics work. But as the rendering distance increases, he goes back in time to render the entity. It’s not so much that he’s incredibly powerful (which he is), but his mind doesn’t have any of the properties and limitations we are used to working with in this world. Time, space, causality, form – those things are hard walls for humans, but for him they are what wisps of plasma are to a tokamak, or what vector meshes are to a graphics card. It’s a completely different world, with different things being difficult, easy, impossible or whatever.
Yes, but you have to keep in mind that our analogies come from our not-completely-forgotten intuitive experience of how the astral world works. For instance, nothing Jesus was talking about makes sense in the physical world, but it’s how things work in the astral world, and apparently he didn’t make a clear distinction between the two. People intuitively mix up physical crystals with the spiritual ones, because it triggers a memory. BTW when a crystel goes bad, it’s not that it’s covered in darkness, it’s that its fundamental nature is changed to be dark. It’s like adding poison to water, not like pouring it into a glass of different color.
I basically do whatever. If I have to do something really hard, then someone might notice. For instance, when I initially learned to make objects of power, I had to really concentrate, it was a process and I had to really work hard. I could do it in a restaurant or something, but you’s clearly see me doing someting. Phase 2, I could do the same thing walking through a crowd and nobody would see anything special. If you see me work, it’s usually the part where I’m “aiming”, trying to “design the code”, so to speak. The surrounding noise just makes me use up more energy and tire more easily, which is why I prefer to go to Hvar to recover, because the environment is not as abrasive. But I learned perfect concentration of the kind where I could do shaktipat initiations in a bar somewhere, very soon after first discovering the yogic techniques, because I never had a controlled environment and I had to both disguise what I’m doing and be impervious to the environment. Decades ago.
It’s not like that. Let’s say his nature is closer to the objects of power than that of human-type souls, but have in mind that I once lost an object of power, a ring, in the woods, and I didn’t know where it was at all. Days later, in a dream I felt a big dog-like animal sniffling and making noises around “me”, “I” was lying on the forest floor in the dark, feeling afraid and reaching out. When I woke up I immediately remembered where that was, went there and found the ring in the leaves.
The object of power has an astral aspect that can feel fear when its physical “body” is threatened by foreign influence, for instance a watchmaker doing something to the watch that is the “physical vessel”, and the way my entities feel and reach out, it’s very much like the things I feel from the Jewel. In that sense, they can actually do things on their own, in a limited way. My brain will cook if I continue trying to explain this in human language terms. 🙂
Yes and no. It’s not person-specific, it doesn’t give a shit about persons. It reacts to triggers, the way a landmine reacts to pressure, or a magnetic mine reacts to a hull of a ship. If specific conditions are met, do code. You can trigger one just fine if you start thinking in a prohibited way, or try to act in a prohibited way.
It’s more complicated than that. Remember the Hindu concepts of deserving persons having merit they can use to power blessings or curses? And when they curse someone wrongly, their merit is spent? It works like that. The code is carefully designed with certain expectations, for instance that persons triggering the mechanisms will be sinful, of impure motives and karma, and the triggered response is designed to look like a karmic lesson, basically serving as a vessel for deploying a karmic blow. They are designed to glide along the force-lines of karma and be both undetectable and energetically efficient. However, when applied to someone of pure motives and without sin, they suddenly become very obvious, unsubtle and they go very badly against the force-lines of karma, essentially creating friction that “dulls the blade” and doesn’t “restore energy into the spring”.
Also, at this point I am a very special case here – a Schroedinger’s cat of a sort. Normal laws are in a state of flux around me.
Crystals are same/similar to what you would call jewels? Don’t know anything about jewels but crystal is what I saw “beyond the veil” of someone and it felt like it is the most precious thing I’ve ever seen. But then assumed this crystal might be something my mind was wrongly interpretating since I didn’t expect something like it (which, funnily, is usually sign that there was no interpretation)
Crystals, jewels, gemstones, crystallized spiritual “thunderclap” or “bells”, embodiments of merit, power or authority.
Ah, ok. It must have been something else then.
I don’t think so, you likely saw the real thing, because the description, “it felt like it is the most precious thing I’ve ever seen” makes me think you saw something that emanates importance and preciousness. However, I must point out that there are *many* entities of that type, and they can be immensely different.
Is it like a base that is build upon?
More like an entity class. They share the basic common nature, but they vary from the most basic crystals, to the kind that’s essentially a presence, or a portal, to even higher things.
Haha, my first thought reading his comment was Romana 🙂
Will us ordinary souls, your followers completely lose touch with you in the afterlife? I always remember how you said you don’t like astral/mental level existence, do you intend to use those bodies, teach? I know you need a long vacation 🙂 But you never seemed to me the person that rests a lot.