Volumes have been written about the spiritual dangers of arrogance, but even so, I don’t think people can imagine the level of hubris some advanced souls displayed when interacting with Satan and this world, or the level of harm such souls happened to sustain as a result of their foolishness.

However, this foolishness has a name; it’s a very specific kind. It’s name is belief that God can overcome everything, that God is absolutely supreme, and that their reliance on God, that created and evolved their souls to the point of being essentially archangels/demigods, will serve them as well here in this place, as it did in the real world, where they were born and where they evolved.

Yes, belief in God’s supremacy and in your position because you believe in God completely, is fatal arrogance. It’s the arrogance Sentinel displayed when he allowed Sanat Kumar to have access to the world-rendering engine, the Jewel, in order to perform his experiments, because God is perfect and supreme, so what evil could ever come of it? He believed no evil could happen because God would have prevented it, and even if it did happen God would easily have overcome it, so evil can’t be a really serious threat. And yet, it was God who put him in charge of the Jewel and making sure it’s accessed only for good reasons. He was warned not to grant access to Sanat Kumar, and yet he dismissed the warning, telling me I had ways to grow in my faith in God because my belief that there’s serious danger marks me as immature. Now he’s dead, and we’re all fucked. So yeah, faith in God is a form of fatal arrogance. If you have faith in God and you’re not God, you’re an idiot because you don’t know what you’re talking about, it’s just your internal pep talk and self deception. You’re free to believe in God when you’re God doing God things. Before that, work on exchanging belief for actual experience and practical knowledge, because then you’ll actually know what you’re talking about. But that’s just my personal frustrations speaking. I hate it when I’m right and people don’t listen because “they know better”.

The problem with arrogance is that it’s the heads side of a coin that has another side, called humility. It’s a spiritual disease, an ego defect, a sign of a problem with your relationship with reality, and like the manic-depressive disorder that became known as the bipolar disorder, this one should be known as a singular issue that has two apparently opposite aspects. Remember when I said that I have no self-confidence whatsoever? Well, that’s the cure for the arrogant-humble disorder, because an arrogant-humble patient has baseless belief in the state of things that they can’t currently witness or work with as fact. They either believe they are great, or they believe they are worthless. They either aggrandise themselves, or diminish themselves. Both are symptoms of the same ego defect, because the solution is to just see what is real, and then say it’s real. To think is to know shit, basically. This is why I don’t trust in any kind of science that doesn’t produce technology, because technology is the kind of feedback from reality that shows that your science works. Cathode-ray tube and solar panels are the proof of the photoelectric effect. A working airplane is proof that your aerodynamics and propulsion theories are sound. If it doesn’t produce technology, it means it doesn’t have feedback from reality, which means it’s all bullshit as far as I’m concerned. It’s the same with God. God is reality, not theory. You’re either there or you’re not. Having an opinion is of no use. If you know what God thinks, either you’re a God-person who thinks that, or you’re suffering from an ego disorder.

“Knowing what God thinks” sounds like hubris and arrogance, but all the humble people suffer from the same condition. They all “know what God thinks”. They “know” they are unworthy or worthless, they “know” they are sinful, they “know” they deserve damnation and they can be saved only through God’s intervention. There’s a whole Bible of things they “know” about what God thinks about this or that. Their humility and their arrogance are the same coin. They are supremely arrogant to think they figured out God, and supremely humble before God as they figured him out. They just never got around to ask God, but there’s no need, because they believe and they have faith.

This profile of souls can apparently function just fine in Heaven, but their ego structure is a very bad match for the design parameters of this world, which exposes their vulnerabilities and attacks them instantly and viciously, and they sometimes have enough time to figure it out and solve their problem, and sometimes they get destroyed instantly, the way I already described – basically, challenge Satan to do his worst, here, in his playground, and that’s where your story gets a very bad turn. Thinking that God will overcome all may have served you well in Heaven, where God ruled supreme anyway, but here, you need to understand that Satan has actual permissions from God, and that you need to tread very lightly here and not make claims that won’t be backed.

It’s obvious how arrogance gets you in trouble, but humility somehow manages to get under the radar and present itself as cure for arrogance, rather than a different appearance of the same problem. However, this world is abundant with people and institutions who will tell you to obey them, and teach you that even thinking about refusing them means arrogance, and “we all know” God hates arrogance. So, every thief, every rapist, every murderer, every corporation and every government will want your humble compliance with their plans, and their argument will always be “Who are you to say no? What right do you have to say no?” It’s quite obvious how humility gets you instantly enslaved, because an assumption that you’re nobody, that you’re sinful if you think you’re better than anyone else, gets you in a position where you can’t actually deal with abusive people or institutions. So, people usually resort to arrogance as a defence, but having a fictitious defensive answer, to a question you don’t actually have an answer to, does not actually solve the problem. But, what does?

Let me tell you what I did when Satan attacked me once when I was half asleep and therefore the least able to resist. I told him “I surrendered and dedicated my entire being to God alone, and since you’re an expert in all things non-God, please, if you find anything on me that is not of God and devoted to God, by all means, either destroy it or take it with you because I have no need for it anyway”. Basically, I opened myself towards him and surrendered to his attempt to find any hypocrisy, falsehood or essentially anything not of God, and if he found it he could keep it. His presence went away instantly.

So, my interaction with Satan was not along the lines of “I’m going to fight you and win because reasons”, or “I’m unworthy because reasons, but I trust that God will protect me”. It was “I am ready to surrender to your test of my choice for God, and if you find falsehood in me, I will answer for it, if God allows it”. It’s neither humility nor arrogance. It’s just facts and reality. No ego, no opinions, no beliefs, no mental or emotional structures unbacked by reality. It’s merely “I built an engine, the nominal specs are here, feel free to test it”.

I’m not saying I’m completely impervious to the arrogance-humility disorder, because part of it is built into the biology of the species, but at least I’m aware of the problem and I’m trying to stay clear of the pitfalls as they arise. So, for the most part, I try to be neither humble nor arrogant. I merely state facts as I see them, and to the extent I’m allowed, and if you doubt them go ahead and verify if you think it’s within your sphere of competence. My answer to the “who do you think you are?” is always “I try not to think, especially when prodded by people I don’t care for”. I am who I am, it is what it is, it does what it does. What I think matters very little. Basically, the answer to an arrogant person trying to appear as a champion of humility and to drive me into a humble mode where they will be able to easily command me to my detriment and their benefit, is “I’m afraid you are talking to the wrong person, you confused me for someone who gives a shit”. “Who do you think you are, talking to me like that?” – “Someone who doesn’t give a shit about you”.

I know that the part about souls that grew up partially damaged due to systematic torture in this world by Sanat Kumar must have caught everybody’s attention, and it’s natural to ask oneself what would prevent him to do that to you. I actually asked myself the same question, because I was pretty much on top of his shit list.

The answer is, you apparently need to be stupid and arrogant enough to actually ask for it, and I wasn’t. Some, however, were. Imagine a being that’s basically a crystal of blue or deep violet vajra, thinking it’s indestructible, immortal and pure God-consciousness, coming here to deal with the Satan problem that seems to have been some kind of an issue to the weak souls that tried to solve it before, and smilingly challenges him to do his worst.

And Satan, of course, shrugs and says “you have a deal”.

You can imagine what happens next, and I don’t even want to go there, but that’s how you end up with a fatally broken crystalline soul that calls Satan “Master”, thinks there’s a rapist in every shadow and underground garage, and parents are people who psychologically and physically torture you. Such a person no longer listens because she thinks she knows everything already, and just wants to stay on Sanat Kumar’s good side by serving him in every possible capacity and avoiding anything that would possibly displease him.

Imagine being so arrogant and stupid as to enter this place on its owner’s terms and literally invite him to do his worst and thus give him permission to do so, that he would normally not have, and would have to play by the rules in order to avoid being punished for a karmic transgression himself. You might ask how someone so arrogant and stupid ended growing so big and powerful spiritually, and that’s where we come to the next thing I was talking about, how souls who evolved in the real world, the one God created, end up being very much perfectly formed and beautiful, but they lack imagination regarding evil, what it looks like, what it can do, and so on. Also, since they never actually had any experience with evil where they grew, they were never harmed or exposed to something really nasty, and so they don’t really get it. They don’t understand what it would be to grow up in poverty with parents who use you as a punching bag or whatever else. They don’t understand what it would be like to be sold into slavery, be carried away into a Roman whore house and repeatedly fucked by customers until you die in your early twenties. Those sophisticated souls who grew outside the realm of evil think bad things happen only to those who are evil themselves and thus deserve it, and they, pure meditation on an aspect of God, have no evil within themselves, and all evil will thus just wash harmlessly across their perimeter, taking no hold.

And then they wake up here, after having challenged Satan to do his worst because they believe in the power of God, and their tragedy begins, and goes on, and on, and on, and death doesn’t end it, and they end up as broken slaves of Satan, afraid of every shadow, afraid of every action that could cross him, and he needs but to raise an eyebrow at them for them to piss themselves.

That’s the story of fuck around and find out. To invite evil to do its worst against you isn’t faith in God. It’s arrogance and stupidity. Faith in God is to never test fate, but instead assume you are in real, deadly trouble, and hold on to God in every thought and action, never presuming to sin against even the Devil himself, but instead merely talk about how great and wonderful God is. This place is unfortunately a graveyard of the arrogant and the stupid, and mistakes were often fatal. Crushing the arrogant powerful souls is Satan’s specialty, and in order to challenge him in his seat of power you need to really be an idiot, because by doing that you become his property in a very true sense of the word, and you just removed any fear of punishment that would otherwise force him to be circumspect and roundabout in his ways. How much can he harm you? The answer is “yes”. But if you are respectful, mindful of your situation, and focused on God as an Ariadne’s thread in this world, following His silent presence in all things, Satan can tempt, he can test, he can offer you something similar to what you think is God in order to test your discernment, he can expose you to some degree of hardship to test your resolve, but he generally needs to be really careful about it.

You know, he actually did threaten me personally – he asked me if I realised what he can do to me here. You know what I answered? “I know, you can do immensely terrible things, but they would be your choice, not mine; and being your choice, they would also be your responsibility under the law of God”.

As you could probably guess from the previous article, one can be half enlightened, half fucked up, and overall a complete mess, and people in general don’t understand how that’s possible, thinking that you are either/or, but never both. Well, they are sort of right, because you can’t be a complete and perfectly pure soul crystal, let alone a person of God, and have issues such as trying to be a “strong independent woman”, or one of those “gurus” who are making a name for themselves but not in a good way.

However, “complete” or “full” anything is rare in this world; hardly anyone is a complete fool or a madman, let alone enlightened. A partially enlightened person, however, is a real test for one’s discernment. I’m not even talking about those occasional people with an experience of samadhi, but no virtues worth speaking of, and often little to no sanity either. They can call themselves enlightened, and they can even pass as enlightened in some misguided belief systems, but most people would correctly identify them as insane in some way and avoid them, so the amount of harm they can do is very limited. I’m talking about souls that are partially crystallised, and partially rotten like a bad tooth, who combine Divinity and Insanity in the same person, and provide evidence of both. Imagine someone espousing a worldview that combines feminism, satanism, Wicca and Vedanta, and powers that abominable mixture with a charisma and lesser miracles derived from an actual Divine internal source. Think it’s too far-fetched to be true? Think again. Enlightenment, madness, knowledge, ignorance, corruption and goodness can all coexist in the same person, creating abundance of mischief and confusion in the world that’s already fucked up as it is.

When we add this problem to the existing issue of people having very little clue on what actual spirituality and enlightenment looks like, what ends up happening is the unrealistic expectation of what a fully enlightened person is supposed to look like, when people put all those half-crazies on a heap, see what they are like, and conclude that a fully enlightened person would be nothing like that. They create an idealised image of some Jesus-like figure walking on air and water, raising the dead from the cemeteries as he passes by, glowing in the dark and not needing anything material for sustenance, that an actual Jesus could never live up to, and claim that anything less is fake and crazy.

That’s why I said that half-crazy, half-enlightened mixtures are a real test of one’s discriminatory abilities, because a common fool would either accept them uncritically, or reject a true incarnation of God due to inability to distinguish it from a partial one. The actual truth is that things are complicated, in both this world and the other one. Nothing can save you from using your brain for its intended purpose, which is what I keep repeating because it’s true. If there was a rulebook you could consult, all the fake gurus in the world would be the first ones to memorise it and make sure to pass all the checks and look most enlightened. The truly enlightened people, on the other hand, wouldn’t care about those things, because they aren’t trying to pass your checks and tests.

So, unlike what people normally think – that you have all kinds of fake gurus trying to present themselves as enlightened in order to benefit from deceiving people – the truth is even more complicated: you have crazy people who are deluded into thinking they are spiritual; then you have deceivers who may or may not also be crazy to some extent, who are in it for power and worldly benefits; then you have people who are actually enlightened to a degree, with some actual spiritual powers, but who are also seriously fucked up and half past crazy from high spiritual energies powering up their madness and karmic corruption, creating a fireworks of raw sewage combined with occasional pearls of actual holiness. And then you have the fully enlightened people who are usually accused of being fake and crazy because they look too ordinary. If you lack discernment, and in order to have the ability to discern you need to be able to recognise what God feels like, you are at risk of dismissing the real thing or accepting false guidance, and I don’t know which of the two is worse.

I know all of this sounds terrible, but tough shit, because that’s what we have to deal with here. This is not a world of clarity, but a world of mixed realities, where God, Satan and everything in between has been put in a blender, thoroughly mixed, and we now have to try to work through that mess with a goal of reaching the other end in no worse shape than we started with, and hopefully better. An inexperienced person has no chance of figuring anything out; they will get it wrong every single time, and even if they accidentally get it right, they’ll fuck it up in the next iteration. However, after multiple instances of getting it wrong and suffering, and getting it right and losing it by mistake, wisdom gradually crystallises in one’s soul and one develops an instinct that guides them, but it’s not always pointing at the right direction. One who chose evil will develop a reliable instinct for choosing evil and rejecting God in every next iteration. One who chose God will develop an instinct for recognising what God feels like, the way a magnet reliably recognises iron filings even when they are intermixed with sand. It’s not 100% reliable, but it improves, not because you develop experience, but because you develop virtuous inner qualities that react positively to God, and negatively to bullshit. That’s what spiritual evolution is about, and that’s why discernment is not an intellectual feature, but a symptom of a soul’s maturity and true spiritual status.

I mentioned only three major categories of souls – astral gas, vajra crystal and person of God – but this of course creates multiple valid questions. For instance, I mentioned crystalline souls with fractures, inclusions and all kinds of flaws, and I mentioned souls that have “jewels”, crystalline entities that belong to them while the rest of their soul is still of a lesser order – that apparently happens when someone accomplishes something great, that is above their normal level of achievement, so they are part crystal, part “gas”. Also, soul crystals exist in multiple orders of magnitude of energy, and in various sizes, so growth is possible in both quantity and quality. Typically, a blue vajra crystal would have to grow in size, and then some parts of the soul would obtain higher quality, for instance black or white substance which I used to refer to as “atmic level”, but I’m not sure this nomenclature is valid; I now call the black type shivaratri, and the white type, well, I don’t have a name for it but since almost nobody has any experience with it, that’s not really a problem. 🙂 Eventually, the large crystal of blue vajra would be compressed into a small one of black or white shivaratri, depending on your soul’s gender. Then there would be growth in size on that level, and what happens next is a secret, which I won’t reveal at this point in time.

But let us return to the things that actually matter to people reading this. Obviously, “organic” karmic aggregation through various lives and experiences produces “messy” outcomes; that’s actually the point, because otherwise God could just rubber-stamp perfect souls and be done with it. This way, we can get unexpected results, beings who grew in unexpected ways, which for the most part produces just lots of really fucked up souls of low quality that aren’t going anywhere and are evolutionary dead ends, which is then solved by pralaya, a periodic reset where such karmic abominations are wiped out, their constituent particles are joined with the successful souls that are willing to participate in the karmic cleanup (a very painful and nasty thing to endure, mind you, beside being quite demanding), and that’s that.

However, this messiness can extend to a higher soul-type, and so you get crystals that grew with inclusions and fractures, rather than a “clean” initiation into vajra, where one would attain purity, presence and independence of all four elements. What do those inclusions and fractures mean? Let’s say one’s spiritual evolution was from a path of a sannyasi, a reclusive monk meditating in his cave. Let’s say he attained abilities and states of consciousness of a pretty high and uncommon kind, but also has all kinds of stupid ideas about the “world”, about people living in it, about women, about people outside his caste and nation and so on.

In order to get rid of those inclusions, one would have to be born in a situation where he would experience things from a completely different perspective, and then either learn that he was wrong, or stubbornly persist in his inherited ways and really badly fuck up, in ways he can’t ignore, and come to the proper understanding in a more painful way. It’s a very nasty process and some would avoid it at all cost, which makes problems persist, or they would surrender the entire problem to God, which would make it God’s problem to solve.

In any case, such impurities are a very persistent mess, particularly because such highly evolved souls are stubborn in their ways and tend to think that their problems are not problems at all, but part of what makes them special and better than others. For instance, accepting any “spiritual person” as your superior at face value can seem like virtue of humility to people who went through a specific school of spirituality in past lives, but it makes them extremely vulnerable to all kinds of charlatans and beginners wearing orange robes, which causes all kinds of trouble. An opposite problematic issue would be unwillingness to listen to anyone because you assume you know better and everybody else is an idiot, because that’s what your past experiences had taught you.

Those are merely the simplest of examples, because when I say that organic evolution is messy, I’m not kidding. People who had all kinds of past experiences can have all kinds of trauma, misapprehensions and nonsense intermixed with deep understanding and ability, and sometimes you can have really tragic cases of souls that are on one hand very sophisticated and evolved, and on the other hand too fucked up to exist or function properly, for instance because Sanat Kumar intentionally tortured and broke them here; all those slaves who died in mines, construction sites, whore houses and fields of history, occasionally end up half-enlightened, having profound spiritual experiences and understandings that crystallise their soul, but on the other hand they have parts terribly deformed from multiple incarnations of serial rape and slavery in whore houses of ancient Rome or Middle East, or something equally nasty, and their spiritual structure is so fucked up and fragile, that its entire point seems to be about fear, defence of unhealed wounds, spiritual scar tissue and deformed understanding and growth into an abomination that would continue creating problems even past this world, because they aren’t letting go of their problems, or even understanding them as problems; they usually think their problems are solutions.

If this is insufficiently clear, try convincing a lesbian who had multiple past lives of being serially raped and whipped by men in some basement that being a defensive, aggressive man hating bitch is a problem rather than a solution, and you’ll get what I’m trying to say. And let’s say you have such a person that’s made of a combination of such scar tissue and fucked up mess, and blue or deep violet vajra. Good luck trying to explain anything to such a person; they evolved by shielding themselves completely from anything that even remotely smells of irritating their sensitive spots, and by concentrating on their strong spots as if they were a solution and not a completely parallel thing. As I said, you can’t heal someone’s wound if they think it’s not a wound but a shield that protects them. Such a soul exists in multiple realities – their wounds tie them to this world, while their strong points tie them to heaven, and if they resist solving their problems, I guess they get crushed in pralaya, and if something remains, it’s the part that was actually solid, but the mass of the resulting entity is always diminished compared to what it would have been had they actually got their shit together, saw the problem as a problem and solved it instead of nurturing it.

It’s not just the messiness of evolution that causes this type of issues; particularly, it’s evolution here, in this world, where serious delusions and misapprehensions can be intermixed with rapid growth through virtuous choices and good understanding, that seems to produce the worst of the mess. The solution is obvious – you need to “break”, understand that what you thought was your strength is just shit, that you got things wrong, and then you learn and actually grow in understanding, and then the soul crystal can actually heal. Sometimes, you need to understand that some things were just unfixable and wrong and they need to be written off, the way cancer needs to be removed in surgery, and the loss of mass, well, it’s not like it’s been doing anything useful where it was, really. You lose soul-mass, but you lose the part that was making you insane and leading you to doom, so that hardly counts as a loss anyway.

So, if evolution here potentially creates karmic abominations, what does evolution in the real world produce? Well, for the most part it produces beautiful and uniform growth, but also the complete inability to understand evil, because they were not properly exposed to it, and they also seem unable to understand the concept of dirty methods producing good results. They seem to have limited ability for unconventional problem-solving, or pattern recognition, and their ability to conceptualise “good” is rather simplistic. So, on the plus side, this world does something right. On the minus side, when the results are bad, they are incredibly bad; and, unfortunately, they typically are bad.

You might be justified in asking what use does a God have for armour when they are made of a substance that can’t possibly be harmed by anything other than their own sin, and is in fact harder and more resistant to damage than the stuff their armour is made of?

That reminds me of a joke, “why did the Kamikaze wear helmets” – “for shits and giggles”.

Of course a God doesn’t need armour, or clothes, or jewellery. Someone who is more magnificent than any jewel doesn’t need improvement to their looks. Someone who’s more deadly than any weapon and harder than any armour doesn’t need neither firepower nor protection. And certainly, someone whose true appearance is closer to that of a black hole than a human doesn’t need clothes to cover anything sensitive. It’s just a symbolism that translates reality to something human brain would be able to process. It’s a way to show connections and relationships.

I know, being a “strong independent woman” is popular among satanists and in various hellish planes, among souls that look like greyish wisps of filthy astral smoke that’s barely holding itself together, because every part of them also wants to be a “strong independent woman” rather than be a part of such a soul. Such a soul would put up a display of satanist defiance and hold a speech about how it’s better to die alone than to live the life of a jewel on a God, but that’s kind of why such non-souls look the way they do, end up the way they do, and why there are no “strong independent women” in heaven. Independence is not something that’s considered desirable among highly developed, enlightened souls; connection is. And among connections, the most praised are those that allow you to constantly feel the presence of someone greater than yourself, because that actually “rubs off” on you, it allows you to get better and deeper ideas than you would on your own, and much quicker than you would on your own. It allows your questions to be answered immediately rather than waste a zillion years trying to figure out something neither you nor your peers understand, but your superiors find it trivial. It’s like being connected to the Internet rather than being on your own and unable to look things up; in fact, it’s like having a huge omniscient, incredibly holy being constantly present in the corner of your mind, as a source of great happiness, knowledge, experience and virtue that guides you into becoming more of yourself. Also, more often than not those jewels on a God are souls created by that God in some way, that have independence of the God’s core, and existence as their own beings, but they also don’t want to be separated from their creator, whom they see as the ultimate goal and purpose of existence. I know this might be hard to understand to “strong independent women” whose existence has no purpose, nor do they understand what that would even be, because they never felt anything they want to belong to, but that doesn’t really matter, because all “strong independent women” eventually come to a bad ending and they are not my intended audience; they will be destroyed in a pralaya, their remainders will be mopped up and purified by some God, and their constituent spiritual particles will finally find purpose and belonging, free from the darkness of “independence” and “power”.

Belonging to a God to the point where an astral representation of that God shows you as part of their appearance, as a jewel or a piece of clothes on their person, as armour or a weapon, is very prestigious and sought after. If you remember what I said about crystallisation of soul-substance and what it requires, you’ll understand that each of those crystals is in fact an enlightened Buddha in its own right. Those are all holy souls who attained the first level of perfection and eternal life. Of course sin can kill anyone, but they would really have to go out of their way to defy their very nature in order to commit it. It’s possible, especially when they incarnate in this world and are prone to deceptions of Satan and all the worldly illusions, but even a terribly failed incarnation usually involves nothing more than a jewel’s separation from the physical person whose soul it used to be, because that person made decisions that are so contrary to the soul’s choices and nature, that the connection was permanently broken, and the soul returns to its God, possibly with some karmic issues resulting from evil choices that took place while it was still connected to the sinful physical person, that the God needs to resolve – and yes, that’s one advantage of belonging to someone that powerful; they can actually help you survive such mistakes and failures by taking the burden or punishment onto themselves.

You will note that I speak of enlightenment and becoming an eternal soul-crystal as the first level of enlightenment, but what then is the next level? It’s quite obvious, really; it’s becoming a person of God. However, the leap required is immense, and the sacrifices and feats required to advance to this status are incredibly risky. For most, belonging to a God and slowly absorbing wisdom from their presence is the preferred option. This doesn’t mean stagnation; when a major God incarnates, their jewels usually follow them, forming companion-incarnations of their own, and major Gods often also accompany each other, fulfilling major roles in each other’s lives, since they don’t really care for being surrounded by clouds of astral vapour pretending to be a human person equal to them or even superior.

Such group incarnations are a messy thing and provide abundant chances for failure, but if those are overcome and avoided, this means karmic growth, an increase of spiritual magnitude compared to before incarnation. Also, suffering that is endured without protest also means growth in spiritual mass, and if an incarnate jewel manifests Divine aspects and qualities during life (basically, if they do things that a God would do in their place), they can elevate their status from that of a jewel to that of a companion-deity, a God-person in their own right.

However, since incarnation here is risky, degradation in spiritual status is also possible, and I would say it’s actually far more likely. It’s not an easy thing to do, however – you need to really manifest lack of virtue, kindness and respect towards your spiritual superiors for a long time in order for you to lose enough karmic mass to be degraded from the position of a companion God to the position of a jewel, or even worse, to lose the position of a jewel and turn into karmic gas that may or may not hold on together at all. In most cases, incarnation would be aborted prematurely rather than risk such an outcome, but what happens more often is failure to “enlighten” karma inherited from past incarnations that got merged with a higher being in some way.

This would add incredible complexity to something that’s already very complicated, but if a worshipper or a yogi surrenders their karma to their God, God needs to do something about that stuff, for instance use the outstanding debts and issues as well as permissions to incarnate here that were obtained along with the debts, in order to create a tulku/avatar. Such a karmic compound can learn lessons by doing the right things, or by fucking things up very badly, and outcomes are neither simple nor binary. It’s a huge mess, and most religions don’t account for such things in their preference for philosophically clean, if simplistic understanding of how Divine affairs are to be handled.

In any case, as someone whose job it is to mop up after other people’s fuckups, let’s just say I’ve seen evidence of all sorts of failure, and more than I care to remember. In any case, arrogance and a desire to be a “strong independent woman” seems to come up more often than not as a cause for failure, so that’s something to be mindful of. On the other hand, a desire for deep connection, service and calm endurance of evil, self-sacrifice and acceptance of suffering seems to come up as a cause of enlightenment and spiritual greatness more often than not. Just something to think about.