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Sin, error and flaw

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I just thought that this entire line of thought connects very nicely with my ideas about sin and error.

Now that I think of it, I think it’s even more complicated. It’s sin, error, flaw and lack of ability.

Sin is when you have fundamental misalignment between your soul and God. Sin is when God would do one thing, and it’s the thing you would hate and despise, and you would do differently, or even opposite. For instance, if we take the “Salvos” series, the horned demon is sinful. He’s more strategic about killing others and recruiting minions than the wild demons, who are like beasts that just attack everything that moves, but he’s on a path that would have resulted in him becoming a supervillain like Belzu, Jofis or Regnorex had Salvos not interfered and killed him. If you’re sinful, evil is normal and desirable, while goodness is contemptible. Evil is a spiritual orientation of the soul relative to God.

Error, on the other hand, is when you’re trying to do something, and it ends up being the opposite of what you wanted. Essentially, a good person in error will do bad things, and I guess an evil person in error will do good things. Error is a difference between a desired and actual outcome. Error is how you learn that your understanding, methods and practices need to be improved.

A flaw is something different; it’s a difference between what your soul, your mind, emotions, thoughts and actions should be based on your spiritual orientation and choices, and what they actually are in reality. A flaw is something you have, something you then recognize, understand and correct. A flaw is something you don’t tolerate, as a rule. It’s the difference between where you want to be and where you are.

Lack of ability is something that might be important, in which case you need to work on acquiring the desired ability, but it can also be irrelevant. For instance, if you have multiple major talents, but you suck at music, you can shrug it off and say it’s not your thing to do in this life. However, if you’re a musician, and you can’t do a particular thing related to music, this is a problem that needs to be handled the way flaws are handled in the context of spiritual growth: learn, correct, acquire, practice, get better. In the example of Salvos, her life depends on getting better at fighting enemies, so she practices tirelessly and grows stronger. Her social skills suck, it interferes with her ability to integrate into society and so she learns and gets better at it. She first looks like a demon, then like a brat, then like an eccentric adventurer, and then like an eccentric super-Mage. She always appears quirky, but her quirks are accepted as something typical for extremely talented people. Weird, but good weird. On the other hand, her handwriting is terrible, and remains terrible, because it never stood in her way enough for her to spend time practicing. She doesn’t just automatically get good at something. Also, she needs to prioritise. She only has so many hours in a day. Either she’ll practice alchemy, space magic, creation magic and combat skills, or she’ll practice shopping and handwriting. Something has to go, and often her friends and companions fill in the gaps for her; she’s only one person, she’s young, extremely busy and just can’t get to everything. So, that’s a good approach to the lack of ability. If it matters, you need to deal with it seriously. If it doesn’t matter, you need to make choices and prioritise; you’re always going to suck at most things. You just need to take care not to suck at things that matter to you in this life.

Of God

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There’s another important application of the principle of having to own it first in order to be able to give it to God. It’s the concept of karma.

Essentially, if parts of your karmic body were created by all sorts of godless actions, they are deformed, impure and, essentially, broken, because they contain in themselves something that is incongruent with God, your soul will retain this incongruence in everything you do, so in order to come in alignment with God, you have to iron that stuff up. The evil that is contained in that structure needs to be removed – usually by a combination of understanding, remorse and suffering. This is a process of giving a part of your soul back to God, by making it free from the warping and defiling influences of all things that are incompatible with God. The process of purifying your soul and freeing it from evil is the process of bringing it back under God’s sovereign rule, because if sin and evil own it, God doesn’t.

Purifying external karmic substance, after having purified your own, essentially means to bring it back to God, by owning it yourself, claiming all the impurities and sins contained therein for yourself, and then purifying it with understanding, remorse and suffering the way one does with parts of their soul, because once you’ve integrated it into yourself in the process of purification, you own it. It’s your impurity and sin now, and once you purify it, it’s your pure karmic substance, to grow your soul, one kalapa at a time.

So, as you can see, people talk about surrendering everything to God, but reality of it is both more simple and more complex than what they envision. They would usually think it means giving away your wealth to poor people, while in reality it’s more akin to doing things with it that God would do in your place, and the only good way of doing it is by purifying your soul first, so that it is aligned with God and contains no parts that belong to the world or, even worse, to the Evil One.

There’s also a misapprehension some Christians seem to be under, and that’s the belief that “helping the poor” can justify some highly questionable actions. Let’s imagine an example of a man whose son is a self-serving satanic narcissistic bastard, who spends all his money on expensive shit, on his fellow sodomites, and on other evil activities. Since he’s constantly in debt and out of money, he keeps asking his Christian father to give him some. Since the father can’t deal with this situation properly, he gives him the money and rationalises it to himself by saying that Christ wanted us to give to the needy.

That’s not at all what Christ meant. Christ didn’t mean giving money to a whoremonger who ran out of money for whores and drugs. Christ didn’t mean giving money to a guy who wants to buy a gun to shoot his wife with but he ran out of cash. No, Christ meant giving money to the guy whose house burned down in a fire and whose children are now on the street. That’s what he meant. Financing sin is claiming its fruits for yourself. Financing evil people in their evil and debauchery is not very different from partaking in them yourself. You’re supposed to finance people of God who do things of God, because this way you will live under the Throne of God and partake in God’s glory. You’re supposed to remedy the evils of Satan and this world. You’re not supposed to give money to the needy criminals who fight God. That’s what I have to say about that.

Win it first

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There’s something that’s on my mind at the moment; the concept that some religious people have of wanting to give things to God.

That’s a nice sentiment, but let’s see how that would actually work. You can’t actually give things to God if you’re getting them from God. Essentially, that just means closing the circle of being in God – you get love, wisdom and other things that are of God, and give them to God by some form of service.

In order to actually give something to God, something God doesn’t actually have already and give it to you so that you could play the lila of giving it back, you would actually have to win it from Satan. You would have to win a battle for some resource that God lost, defend it as yours, and only then you even get the option of giving it to God.

It doesn’t have to be something of cosmic importance, like conquering the lost astral subplane and bringing it back under the Throne of God. It can be something more basic, like your mind. If you don’t have control over it, if it’s not under your own sovereign rule, if all kinds of worldly or demonic energies are controlling it, it’s not yours to command, and if it’s not yours to command, how can you give it to God? A mind that’s not completely yours and under your command cannot be surrendered to God.

Also, some people get the idea that they’ll start a business, make money and then finance their guru or other high spiritual endeavours. Let’s see how that would work. First of all, you need to make a profitable business, which is hard, because you have to fight others who are attempting the same. Then you need to take care that you’re not doing more harm than good with your activities, because if you sell your girlfriends as online prostitutes, which is an obvious reference to a certain very public someone, you can’t ever claim to do more good than evil with the money you earned. If your methods are satanic, the results cannot be Divine.

Also, if you lose control of your company, by yielding it to employees or partners who try to wrestle it away from you, you become an employee in that company, if even that, and then you can’t control where the money goes because other people have a say, and you basically lost the ability to do what you initially planned.

So, obviously, this is another case of first having to win it from some aspect of the world, in order to claim it for yourself first, and only then can you even be in a position to surrender it to God. Everything else is a mere ego boost, self-serving and useless.

Who desires God?

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I once heard a very offensive statement by a materialistic person, according to whom no wealthy and successful person ever cries for God; it’s always the losers of life who seek God as some kind of a compensation.

I don’t know where to even begin with this, because it’s untrue in every possible way. First of all, I can cite George Harrison as an example to the contrary. You can probably find a similar percentage of very wealthy and successful people who are deeply concerned over spiritual things, as you can in any other group. The problem is that in every group this percentage seems similar, and tiny.

Which is where we get to my main objection to that silly statement: almost nobody truly cares about God. Sick people desire health. Poor people desire wealth. Old people desire youth. Single people desire an ideal spouse. Unhappily married people desire a way out of their situation. Anonymous people desire fame. Famous people desire peace. Religious people usually desire social recognition and standing that comes from their religious activities. But who desires God? The percentage must be one in a million or less.

And within that percentage, I would bet that all are either in the presence of God, or are going to be.

Sheep in wolf’s clothing

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The reason why I avoided the typical trap of trying to appropriate the outward appearance of a spiritual person was very simple. They didn’t look anything like the goal; nothing like anything I wanted to be. So, if they are not something I want to be, it would be foolish to act like them or try to be one of them.

In the beginning, the most impressive spiritual people looked like something I would want to reach, but outward emulation was obviously not the way to approach that. So, in either case, trying to fake it out never seemed like a worthy approach. Instead, I was doing things no “spiritual person” would recognize as very spiritual, but I knew better – not because I’m that much smarter, but because I had help from above. I knew what to do because darshan of the Gods made it quite obvious.

Fake spiritual people are usually described as wolves in sheep’s clothing, and in some cases this description is quite apt. However, in most cases, they look like sheep pretending to be wolves. You see, when a person poses as a guru, the first thing I think of is to compare the feeling I get in their presence to the feeling I get in the presence of Goddess, or Lord Vishnu, and I can barely control laughter. Those “gurus” are for the most part just human souls slightly increased in depth and dimension by samadhi and similar spiritual states, but their soul structure is essentially human. The real thing feels different, and I don’t even know how to describe it. Imagine a difference between a guy who is trying to impress you with the fact that he bought a Porsche… and Mate Rimac. Imagine a difference between a small person trying to be big, and an incredibly huge person trying to look as normal as possible in order not to freak you out, but you still see the shadow of what’s not shown.

It would be wrong to say that all those “spiritual” humans are fake… but they are also definitely not the real thing, the way a hermit crab in a snail’s house isn’t a snail, but he’s also not fake. It’s a very genuine hermit crab. Also, for the most part those sheep trying to act like wolves have very obviously never seen a real “wolf”. They never saw a God in person, because that leaves a mark on you; it defines how you will approach spirituality, what you will see as sensible and pointless, what you will understand as the goal, and what you will discard as silly. If someone thinks a lion is something like a big dog, you know they never saw a lion. If they think a rhinoceros is something like a big cow with a single horn, you know they never saw the real thing. Seeing the real thing defines what you will consider as valid options. It defines your coordinate system, your frame of reference. It’s not merely a thing in the coordinate system, among other things, or an abstract idea. It redefines what everything else is.

God is not a big saint. God is a whole qualitatively different order of being. Humans trying to act saintly are not saints, because a saint is a wholly different order of being; a saint is someone who saw God, and this left a mark by transforming his entire frame of reference. A saint is not something who is “all good”. No, a saint is someone who saw what God is, and knows what everything else is in reference to That.

So, when a human tries to pretend to be a saint, or even worse, when a supremely silly human tries to pretend to be a God, I find it something between sad and funny.