In Hindu and Buddhist sources that talk about reincarnation, a birth in human form is always described as something rare and precious, that provides the opportunity for attaining liberation. Sankaracarya narrows it down further – human birth is precious, but being born as a male is even more precious, and being borne as a brahmana is most precious. Before women start making noises about it, consider this: the Hindu civilization is very strict, it prescribes duties very precisely, and if you’re born a sudra, you are expected to be a physical worker or a servant, if you’re born a vaiśya you’re expected to became a skilled tradesman or a merchant, if you’re born a ksatriya you’re expected to be a soldier, policeman, politician or a ruler, and if you’re born a brahmana, you’re expected to be a religious scholar, a priest or a yogi. A woman, even within the highest caste, is expected to be a mother and a housewife, albeit very highly educated and intelligent one, and is not supposed to be a wandering sannyasini. Even the feminine gender of the word sounds weird and uncommon. So, what Sankaracarya said is actually common sense – since he was a wandering monk, a sannyasin, who thought this was the best way of life if you want to attain liberation, it’s obvious that being a male brahmana is the only birth where such a choice will be approved of, and even encouraged.

What is interesting is that even in those ancient times a choice to be a yogi and a wandering monk who seeks liberation from the world was seen as exceedingly uncommon, a thing only a few do, and even fewer attain success. Even in those times, when human birth was seen as a rare and precious thing, there were discussions on whether sudras have a soul or not, because, apparently, their appearance and actions allowed for such questions.

The model of reincarnation is quite different between the Vedic, Hindu and Buddhist religions. The Vedic system sees spiritual life in ways that resemble that of Christianity – there is heaven, hell and the physical world, but you are not necessarily stuck in either heaven or hell forever. Saints and gods can commit an offence or a sin and end up born on Earth, even in animal form. Humans can end up in either heaven or hell, and in various forms, depending on their actions during life. Beings in hell can rise up when the punishment for their sins is exhausted.

Buddhism, however, adopts a Jainist, rather than Vedic theory of soul, and develops it further, stating that soul is in fact an aggregation of karma that follows a path that is of its nature – desires create rebirth focused on their fulfilment, basically, and good and evil deeds create rebirth that will allow for reward and punishment. Hinduism in essence adopts the Buddhist view on karma, but revises it to accommodate for the concept of atman, an individual soul that is an aspect of brahman, the Absolute, and is a core of infinity captured under the layers of karma.

The commonly understood truth between all three systems is that human birth is the pinnacle of what is possible in this world, but that sophisticated souls that explore high spirituality are very rare in this world. Basically, they would be a fraction of a percent of a population. Even great gurus had only a handful of disciples, and deep understanding was exceedingly uncommon.

Also, in Hinduism and Buddhism, the systems that work with the assumption of spiritual evolution through many incarnations, there is a common assumption that it takes an exceedingly long time for a soul to develop the level of sophistication or purity that would allow for a human birth, and also a very large number of human births to slowly evolve towards the point where liberation is attainable.

Regarding the concept of delay between incarnations, things are less clear. There is a theory according to which reincarnation is something that happens with very little delay between lives, because the momentum of karma very quickly creates another birth. There is another theory according to which the souls wait in the astral world until their karma for another birth ripens. In any case, the theory according to which there is a huge number of sophisticated souls queued up somewhere in the astral world, waiting until a human body is made for them to be born in, because there’s a lack of human bodies available on Earth, could be easily falsified even in ancient times – you see, there is a tantric concept according to which most humans are pashavi, animals in human form, without any spiritual interests or abilities. Obviously, the majority of human beings were hardly more than cattle even in those times, which is not what one would expect to happen if human body was a rare thing only the best and brightest of souls could qualify for. Yogis were exceedingly rare, and pashavis were the rule. So, let’s err on the side of caution and say that there were twice as many souls somewhere on the astral planes that were queued up for incarnation in human form, or in the lack of human bodies inhabited bodies of the more intelligent animals, some of which are in fact self-aware. So let me show you this graph:

As you can see, during the times of Buddha, when the concept of rare human birth was articulated, human population worldwide was around 300 million. According to the aforementioned model, let’s say that half the qualified souls inhabit the human form, and the other half is waiting for their turn, due to the scarcity of bodies. The total result is 300 million humans, of which 99% would be qualified as pashavi, meaning they could as well be horses, donkeys, cows or elephants for the amount of high spirituality they show interest for. This means that some 3 million souls, when incarnated, would manifest symptoms that would qualify them as obviously supra-animal by qualified spiritual people, meaning that they seek knowledge, spirituality and transcendence, rather than sensuality, possession of goods and control over other humans. Those 3 million souls are obviously something you can’t just make more of quickly; if so, we would be dealing with a situation where a significantly larger percentage of human population was “filled” by those.

So, if we concede as fact that sophisticated souls with transcendental inclinations were an insignificant percentage of a population of 300 million, and 1% is probably an overestimation but let’s leave it at that, and we also concede as fact that spiritual evolution takes a long time and you can’t just make more souls at will, or get them from some adjacent pool where they are waiting for their turn, because if you had 200 million of them, spiritual people and yogis would form 66.67% of the population of 300 million, instead of 1%, we must contend with the following situation: human population held rather steady until the advent of the industrial evolution, at which time it doubled; furthermore, with the introduction of modern agricultural technology and medicine, the population spiked exponentially – 3.5 billion in the late 1960s, 8 billion now.

So, if less than 1% of a population of 0.3 billion could be filled with souls that deserve the name, while the others could interchangeably fill humans or other smart animals, such as cows and horses, and let’s say there was a queue of souls in the astral plane waiting for a physical incarnation, and let’s say that this queue can’t be that deep, or more than 1% of human bodies would show more-than-animal inclinations, what the hell do we do to explain 8 billion additional human bodies appearing in just a few centuries?

Sure, we can’t really know how deep the astral pool of souls is, but honestly, I am willing to extend the number to one billion souls. After that point, you lost me, because even millions of actual sophisticated souls were a stretch in times of Buddha, and of 300 million, most were total animals. Having all that in mind, what the hell inhabits the other seven and a half billion human bodies? It’s not like there’s a lack of sophisticated, intelligent animals for pashavis to inhabit, either – in modern farming, huge numbers of cattle are grown, to accommodate the larger human population that needs food. There’s all that talk about wildlife extinction, but I would venture a guess that the total number of land animals actually increased due to industrial farming – you can’t say that you have less cows and sheep and more humans, so the animal souls are born in human bodies. You actually have more cows, pigs and sheep.

I thought about this for quite a while – obviously, the first idea I had was that the pool of souls of available for incarnation is unknown, which makes any theorising unreliable. However, then I understood that souls that didn’t have a human incarnation would have a really, really hard time “driving” a human body, considering how I saw humans having great difficulties driving a human body of the opposite sex they are not accustomed to, or displaying signs of mental imbalance or even outright psychosis when trying to push the human body into directions where it doesn’t want to go naturally. Let’s assume that you have a planet of sentient aliens somewhere, and due to depopulation their souls are incarnated here on Earth. They would have a huge problem “driving” a body that is completely different from everything they are used to. Their subconscious memories would attempt to manifest themselves in ways that would push a human body into directions where it doesn’t really work properly, or they would just remain autistic, unable to make the body do anything at all, or even process the sensory stimuli of this type. This, however, made me think about how incarnation actually works, and things get weirder from here, so much so that I actually have a problem when I try to put it into words.

First of all, we need to understand that incarnation of one soul into one body (1:1 relational model) is not the only concept people have come up with. Advaita vedanta, for instance, uses a 1:M model, where one soul incarnates as literally all bodies, and the apparent differences between them are on the order of the Sun transferring energy to Earth, and various gasses, liquids and solids accepting this energy in various ways, manifesting all kinds of complicated fluid-mechanics phenomena, that would seemingly have multiple and unrelated causes. Vedanta uses this highly innovative approach to explain the concept of soul – brahman is the original light, that passes through the multiple layers of maya, illusion, causing apparent difference and separation of entities, and when light of brahman attains self-awareness in human form, it thinks it is atman, a soul. As strange as 1:M model of incarnation might seem, I can easily demonstrate it by citing identical twins, who started as a single entity, which then split into several branches, and analysing identical twins they look like a single karmic entity that was spliced into several separate physical entities, and often those separate lives have all-but-identical “plots”. It’s even easier to explain this with plants, because we can take a cutting and grow it into a separate plant, or grow several plants by splitting the same potato. When you think about it from this perspective, it’s the 1:1 model of soul and incarnation that leads into paradoxes and creates serious issues.

So, if we take identical twins as an example of a single incarnation line that can be split into multiple physical beings, and explain it as a separation that took place below the astral plane, creating two separate physical beings, we can also imagine a single karmic being that creates several apparently separate astral incarnations, each of those proceeding to create multiple physical incarnations, such as a colony of bees or ants.

One of the viewpoints within Hinduism, Sankhya, works with Purusha-Prakrti dichotomy, where a spiritual entity, Purusha, animates an entity in nature, Prakrti, thus creating a soul-body composite, also known as an animate being. A relational model of 1:1 is possible, but not obligatory, so you can have one Purusha animating a whole planet of beings, and within that planet you can have additional influences by multiple Purushas, each creating either singular or plural incarnations, manifesting respective spiritual trends (and if you replace “Purusha” with “Bodhisattva”, you essentially understand what Mahayana Buddhism teaches about Bodhisattva manifesting tulkus). In essence, this would create a situation where one physical being is a manifestation of several different spiritual motivating forces. Also, since the control would reside with the physical being, it can accept or refuse “initiation”, by accepting or refusing to identify itself in certain ways. To put it in Christian ways, saying that a being is “born in original sin” would mean that originally, all humans are “evaporations” of Satan’s will and intent that is manifested as the whole of humanity, but Christ also manifests his influence in the world, that is optional, and one can choose it as his own, and choosing Christ as the Purusha that incarnates through him one “chooses Christ as his personal saviour”, and is “redeemed from the original sin”. One can thus say that “live not I, but Christ within me”.

This makes explaining the process taking place when you suddenly and exponentially increase the number of humans in the world in a short period of time much simpler. You see, in order to drive a human body you don’t actually need a soul at all; if anything, most living beings would simply grow into manifestations of the primary Purusha manifesting through that world; in essence, they would be incarnations of Sanat Kumar’s will and intent – the body of Satan, as I poetically put it in the previous article. This is the lowest-energy, basic state of being, and those incarnated are all of the same “spirit”, they all want the same things, fear the same things, share the same principal goals and are for all intents and purposes interchangeable.

If another Purusha casts his presence upon the world, this inherits, extends and overrides the methods of the basic state, to put it in terms of the object-oriented programming. Essentially, it’s similar to the situation where all things on Earth are heated by the Earth’s core, this overlaps with the heat coming from the Sun, and some places are locally heated by human-made nuclear reactors or combustion of fossil fuels. As a result, you can have multiple overlapping sources of heat, creating local thermodynamic manifestations, or, in spiritual terms, you can have multiple spiritual influencers, or Purushas, creating overlapping phenomena, where human will and choice basically implement formative decisions – you, basically, decide who you are, by accepting and rejecting spiritual influences that make up what you perceive as your inner spiritual life.

So, things are very far from being as simple and clear-cut as they initially appeared – instead of having a situation where you need to have 300 million souls to populate 300 million bodies, which raises the question of what happens when you increase the number of bodies by an order of magnitude, you have some sort of a field that manifests through all human bodies – 8 billion as easily as 300 million, and they are what the tantrics would call the pashavi, in essence the beasts of Satan, trying to fuck, own things and be famous. What you actually need to account for in this theory are the exceptions – the souls that manifest real spiritual interests and real spiritual diversity, and they can be overriding manifestations of other spiritual forces, superimposed upon the default field, which they locally outshine and create local divergences. This can be explained by understanding that we live in a palimpsest of superimposed forces, where the satanic one is the default – the obvious, the easiest, loudest, the non-choice almost everybody lives. However, as one navigates through the maze of inner spiritual choices, it becomes possible to navigate into segments of the labyrinth where other forces are dominant – in fact, by veering into those segments you choose to be influenced by those forces to such a degree, that your self-identity switches from the satanic default, to the high spiritual reality that dominates there; the Christians would phrase this as entering the Church by choosing to be of Christ, or something like that. In essence, those are initiatory choices, because they re-define what you are, as a spiritual being, and it’s not so much that you survive death by making the right choice so that God will recognize you as his own, it’s more along the lines of existing on a higher plane of being and seeing that plane as “self”.

This answers multiple questions at once – who will be saved, who will be destroyed, who will go where after death and so on. It’s trivial – that which you have chosen to be in life, will be your fate after death. If you were one of Satan’s “basic bitches” – the non-choosers who always do what is easy, believe what everybody believes, do what everybody does, the non-awakened, the generic – they are not really souls, they are merely the manifestation of Satan’s basic field of this world, and since they never chose to truly be, they have no future or destiny. They are reabsorbed into the pool of satanic energy that is born again in this world in some form, generic, main-stream and thinking it’s of course on the right side because every other side is wrong, and numbers are on their side because that’s what everybody believes.

If you chose to weave the fabric of self out of other, higher influences that permeate all, your true existence is already “up there”, made of That, and when death washes away the body, you awaken in the fullness of your choice, once the satanic darkness and illusion whimpers out of your existence. That’s all there is to it – those who chose to initiate themselves into higher realities, who made the actual choices to belong to God in one way or another, will see that this choice determined their destiny by making them partake in eternity. Only that, which is of God, can have eternity; the rest dies in time.

The mechanisms of the world-system that I described so far are the basics – essentially, the rule-set of the system itself, that was put there by the designer. However, that’s not all. There are two additional genera of things that I encountered: attractors and supervisors.

I already described the attractors, so I won’t go into much detail there – they are a structure that consists of a power source and some kind of a limited intelligence, and it’s all connected to the global system in a very specific way, to generate the feeling of “magic” around otherwise trivial things, creating spiritual attractiveness – moths to fire, that kind of thing. It’s the inverse projection; a projection is when a soul invests energy into something, to make it feel special and important. This is the object itself radiating the feeling of “specialness” and “importance” in order to attract the souls, which then proceed to feed the feedback loop by creating all sorts of projections of their own. If not for the attractors, we could say we live in a Buddhist world, where we create our own chains and drive the engine of our enslavement with our own energy. However, I’ve seen attractors creating artificial attachments where no natural ones exist, I tested this repeatedly and I’m afraid the phenomenon is real.

The supervisors are, in effect, what you would these days call “AI” connected to the system, with the purpose of actively monitoring the situation and compensating for any anomalies. Similar to the attractors, they consist of a power source, but instead of creating artificial projections and attractions, they power a tulpa of moderate sophistication, all of which look like willing servants of Sanat Kumar, who worship him as the Master and think he’s God. They derive authority from his will and command, and some actually felt like backup copies of old versions of Sanat Kumar’s mind, which means someone could actually take one such backup, and if powered by a big enough structure, you’d get another Satan. Not the same person, mind you, but nobody could tell the difference. For all intents and purposes, they feel like the same character, but lesser in magnitude and with less current knowledge. Sanat Kumar felt like someone who is aware of everything and is completely in charge; these feel like something that was defrosted from the ice age and now tries to figure out what it missed and what’s going on; they feel like they belong in an older version of the world, so to speak. Of course, that’s the case with the old backups that come online as I dismantle the currently active version, so redundancies switch on; I’m not actually sure whether such supervisors were at all active while Sanat Kumar was alive, and whether he did this kind of work personally, or if he just micro-managed them so tightly that I couldn’t feel much difference, but in any case, when I first became aware of this part of the system, it wasn’t good. Everything functioned exactly as he designed it, except that I refused to give up and die under pressure – I basically told him that if he wants me dead, he’ll have to kill me, but I’m not going to do his job for him. However, that seemed to be the trick – he couldn’t. Even the system itself wasn’t allowed to do it, because somehow that was a fundamental breach of contract, and it eventually ended badly for him. However, even with Sanat Kumar dead, the authority over the system still resided with him. The scripts were still doing their job, the attractors were still powered, and the supervisors, well, I can’t honestly tell whether one was present at the time between Sanat Kumar’s death and the point where I noticed older backups coming online; I think there was actually a period where the scripts ran unsupervised, which allowed “the guys up there” to find enough loopholes to pull me from the edge of death and get things working well enough for me to barely survive the following years, because the script seemed to be “blind” now, and didn’t immediately respond to complicated loopholes, the way Sanat Kumar plugged everything up instantly the moment you started to make a plan, which made things only very bad, but not borderline hopeless. At some point I actually started making fun of the “backups” when they threatened me with doom once they manage to locate the Master who for some reason isn’t here now. 🙂

So, if the authority over the system still resides with Sanat Kumar, how does this actually work, him being dead? Well, the thing is, being dead is a spiritual equation that doesn’t always have an unequivocal solution – for instance, a huge part of his authority and identity presently resides with me, since I have absorbed him on kalapa-level, for the most part, and he sinned against me, which according to karmic equations put me in power over him. That, however, is not all. He invested lots of focus in all those backups and supervisors, and his intent in doing this was clear enough, so they persist. Also, and this is a very weird part that will require further explanations, mankind as a whole seems to be “the body of Satan” for all intents and purposes, and most of the spiritual substance recycled by most humans seems to be derived from Sanat Kumar’s global system, so it can be said that they anchor Sanat Kumar in existence by virtue of being incarnate. Actually, they seem to project so hard, trying to fill the empty space where he used to be, that they appear to actually try to create a tulpa that would have all the properties of Sanat Kumar, only it’s very pale – a memory of a ghost, if you will – and this actually made me think whether that’s how Satan actually came to be – if he was merely a very dense tulpa created by human collective focus, iterated upon for millennia, until it became sentient and powerful enough to take control of the world. I still can’t dismiss this possibility outright, but it doesn’t match the majority of the observations, so I set it aside. However, the problem is, if the incarnate humans continue to project energy the ways they do, and this is absorbed by one of the backups, it would in theory, given enough energy, re-create a very real version of Satan. However, the thing is, there isn’t enough energy. The beings that incarnate Sanat Kumar’s will and intent, for all their number, have such minuscule amounts of spiritual energy at their disposal, they couldn’t create a proper demonic entity to haunt someone’s basement, let alone Satan. This is not a democracy, and their number amounts to jack shit. So, we arrive at the conclusion that inertia of the system is an issue, because enough things that remember Satan as he was, and owe their existence to him, embody enough of his essence that he lives on, sort of, in a way. Also, the initial lease on the Jewel hasn’t yet expired, and I haven’t absorbed enough of Sanat Kumar’s substance and authority into myself for the Jewel to recognize that the authority now resides with me.

However, this is not a binary thing, either – I do, apparently, have enough authority for some scripts to obey me, and for others to be put into a real conflict when I issue explicit orders. Also, things seem to get more in my favour as a function of time and my efforts here, so I can see notable improvements over the years. Unfortunately, it also seems to be a function of depletion of energy invested into the world, which makes things exceedingly bad, with all the humans acting increasingly like demon-possessed beasts of insanity, perversion, rage, hate and murder – or like degrading tulpas, which seems to be what’s actually going on. Apparently, the two curves might converge at some point, and I hope this point is not much further in the direction of absolute hell than this, because this is already really, really bad.

How do the scripts actually implement the effect-side of the “karmic” equations?

Let’s take an example of a script that needs to implement either reward or punishment. Let’s say the reward is to increase someone’s popularity in the world, because what he intends to do is seen as beneficial; or, the punishment is to warn humans against that person because he’s seen as disruptive to the system, and everything he does needs to be sabotaged. How does that actually work?

Well, it seems that the humans can actually “sense” those “karmic tags” on other humans, on a subconscious, emotional level, especially if they are completely integrated and loyal to the system. They will, basically, sense if something is “wrong”, and it “doesn’t smell right”. This, basically, means that the priests of the Sanhedrin sensed that something’s “not right” about Jesus, and when they saw “blasphemy”, they didn’t even have to think twice about it, their reaction was immediate, because everything aligned with their “gut feeling” about him. Basically, in order to be in such a high place of power, they already had to be vetted by various scripts of the world, and were, for all intents and purposes, the scripts’ “organ of action” in the visible world. They were selected for worldly power because they were attuned to Sanat Kumar’s will – and, probably, because they recognized him as the “one true God”, probably defined as the creator-maintainer of this world. That’s one of the things the scripts do – promote that which serves the Master, and starve that which opposes him. As a result, you get a manifest worldly hierarchy that is all in service of and in alignment with Satan. If someone in this hierarchy starts to, metaphorically speaking, “rock the boat”, all hell conspires against him and he is removed from power, or from the world in general. So, basically, it’s a very easy and intuitive process – tag someone with either “disruptive” or “constructive” tag, where those tags and their intensity can be sensed on an emotional level by other beings, and especially so by those who were selected for being in strong alignment with the will of the Master. They, then, all do what comes natural to them, and their actions are either affirmed or repudiated by the scripts in charge. Everything looks like a complicated conspiracy, and yet it’s all doable by very simple mechanisms of incentive and iterative action, and on the outside it all looks like “luck”, or “forces of the Cosmos”, conspiring in someone’s favour, or against him.

There’s a thing I would want to clear up regarding the inner workings of the fake karma in this world. Of course, the main irony is that this fake karma works just the way people imagine real karma to work.

The first thing I want to explain is that this world, in its core, isn’t material. Its core is astral, its rules are astral, and the “material” part is merely software – a virtual world similar to a very immersive video game. Basically, you can imagine a video game with a whole virtual world on top that can be perceived by the senses, but underneath it is the system of rules that makes the game – the scoring system, the system that adjusts the behaviour of NPCs and the environment depending on the actions of the player, and so on. Increase this by a level of complexity to accommodate for the fact that every character is playable and they all interact, and you’re close to getting the picture.

The second thing that needs to be properly understood are the scripts. The scripts can be explained as astral code, which is a part of the system itself, but it is segmented. There’s a part that scores player’s behaviour on each action. Another part adjusts the reactions of the environment to the player based on his score. Another part deals with system security and protects the game against undesired things on some list. They are all connected to the system in ways that allow them to see what’s going on, and perform actions based on the rule they embody.

A token is something that can be understood only if you already understand how the scripts work, because it would make no sense otherwise. Imagine that Chinese social credit score, and you’re close enough – it gives the scripts information on how to handle players. Your lowest score is “parasite”. This means you didn’t contribute anything to the system, you just take, and the system reacts to you by “karmic punishment” for taking resources from the system without giving anything in return. As you develop a more favourable ratio of giving and taking, the system revises your score. A token is a special entity that can mark you as, for instance, having a right to expend unlimited resources because you are a VIP. In this case, the script in charge automatically stops evaluating you for karmic retribution on resource expenditure, because you are obviously authorised.

Now let’s extend that into specifics – a professional fisherman has a specific token that allows him to kill fish because that’s his job. He is not karmically charged for it because the scripts see the “tag” and stop processing. A hunter is similarly awarded a “tag” that allows him to kill animals without karmic retribution. I would expect the soldiers to have “tags” that allow them to kill humans in line of their duties. However, if you exceed your privileges, you are karmically charged.

You need to understand that the scripts have very specific duties, because they are intentionally designed to be stupid as fuck and blind as a rock. A script that evaluates tags and tokens doesn’t see your intentions, it doesn’t see you, it sees your permissions and it sees whether action performed is authorized. If authorized, note so and stop processing. If not authorized, note so and stop processing. The next script in line notes “unauthorized” tags on players, processes data, decides punishment and assigns it, then removes the “unauthorized” tag and stops processing. The fourth script executes punishment, removes the punishment assignment and stops processing.

The purpose behind this design is that every single element of the system performs a legitimate and justified function, and their combined actions can create terrible injustices nobody is really responsible for. It’s like the execution of Jesus: the priests evaluate people for religious crimes and detect blasphemy. The Roman authorities execute prisoners condemned by the religious authorities. The crowd cheers based on their perception of what’s going on. The soldiers execute orders. As a result they kill God. Nobody in this entire system said, “I hate God and I want to kill Him”. No – they said they love God and want to serve Him. They intended to do that by detecting and punishing blasphemers. The worldly authorities, on the other hand, want to preserve peace and the rule of law, and an aspect of that is eliminating causes of religious disorder. Since they are not qualified to determine what constitutes religious disorder, they outsourced this to the local religious authorities. As a result, everybody has “good intentions” and are “only doing their job”, and the result is evil and injustice of the highest order. The key elements necessary for this are ignorance of the facts, and segmentation of duties. Even without any malice or evil intent involved, this is a recipe for disaster, and I assure you, there is often malice and evil intent involved – in labelling an embodied God as “false prophet”, “blasphemer”, and “seducer of men”, for instance. However, if you are an evil person in charge of the whole thing, what you want is to merely create the environment where you don’t have to do anything: you just enforce ignorance, enforce strict and very segmented rules, and evil things just happen as a result. You just have to feign ignorance of intent and involvement, and you will be impossible to punish. If you want to stay in power, just make rules that mark those opposing you as disruptive elements, removing their protective tags and tokens, and then the other scripts will process them as disruptive parasites that are routinely starved of resources and exposed to routine punishment for eating and breathing.

So, why did Satan allow Jesus to be falsely charged and executed, if he, at least, knew the truth? Shouldn’t that be sinful? It’s actually very simple – it would go contrary to his mission statement and intent of testing what the souls would do if all answers were not given to them from the start. OK, you say you love and serve God; would you recognize God if things were not completely obvious? Of course you would. You wouldn’t mind me testing that, would you? OK, so God crossed your path in form of a man, and said He’s God. You saw a man saying he’s God and called this blasphemy. This is a fail on a legitimate test, from Satan’s perspective. But wait, you will say, shouldn’t he then protect Jesus from the consequences of other people’s failures of judgment? Not really, since Jesus actually accepted his fate and thus gave Satan a pass on this. What Satan actually had to do is convince Jesus that he’ll “purchase” Satan’s contract on the world if he allows himself to be killed by Satan unjustly. However, he was actually expected to try deception, and succeeding in his stated intent to test you is not actually punishable. So, Satan very subtly deceived Jesus, because he actually told him the truth – if he killed Jesus in the described way, this would be a direct sin and, as such, would give the damaged party huge power over the culpable party. However, by accepting this Jesus actually legally performed suicide by religious fanatics – he ordered his students to get swords, which was punishable by death under Roman law; he also knew that he will be betrayed and taken, and accepted it instead of evading it as usual. Satan didn’t really have to do anything, and so he just allowed the cogs and wheels to turn, in ignorance and law. Some were deceived, some failed their tests, some just did their job, and terrible evil was wrought. Even if Jesus had tokens that would normally protect him, he gave those protections up by voluntarily accepting a course of events that was presented to him as God’s plan, and he was obedient to God in all things. So, according to Satan’s mission statement, humans involved in the prosecution and execution of Jesus either failed their spiritual test, or just did their job and are not culpable. Jesus, on the other hand, passed his spiritual test because he was loyal and obedient to God, but failed the test of discrimination and ego which caused his painful death, and so he has nobody to blame for this. We have a saying in Croatia for this: “pojeo vuk magare”, or in rough translation “a wolf ate a donkey”, which means “all par for the course”.

People often implicitly assume that when things take an unpleasant turn in this world, that it’s an aberration, a wrong that needs to be righted. However, according to both Buddhism and Yoga, things going wrong is normal here. If you want to attain buddhahood, you are swimming against the current, trying to calm natural fluctuations of the mind, and fight against the nature of this world. This world is designed to be as bad a place as can exist and still allow souls to be bound to it, and human body is a very poor vehicle for the soul. For all intents and purposes, it’s a vicious animal bound by instincts that almost always go against one’s better angels, and you need to be constantly in control, or the waters will close above your head as you are pulled in. This is not a cheerful prospect, of course, but it’s not intended to amuse you or lift your mood, but to describe things as they are. In fact, it is my opinion that the optimistic worldviews, that tell you that it is normal for things to be great, will actually make you feel terrible, because they will make you think that things going wrong is somehow your fault, and you will feel both guilty and ashamed for what might appear as your personal failure. The truth, however unpleasant, will lift his burden from you.

Catholics have a term for one of those terrible things that seem to be designed into the world – they call it “the dark night of the soul”. It is a state where a saintly person, through no fault of their own, is separated from the presence of God, while Satan and the worldly forces are allowed to tempt, test and molest them. This seems to be so common, it’s a rule of the world rather than an exception: it might be one of those things God conceded to Satan, allowing him to test souls here, according to the original contract, and a saint who is constantly in the presence of God seems to defy this rule. Of course, God is allowed to have a presence here and to be able to argue His point, because that too is part of the test, but God is not allowed to prevail by offering such an overwhelming and constant support to those who had chosen Him, that all further tests provided by the Prince of this world are made to look insignificant. The tests must be real, and in order to test someone really highly initiated and holy, and in order for the test to be valid, they need to be brought to a very real breaking point. Forty days of fasting in a desert, followed by temptations by Satan, remember? But compared to what some others had, this looks very easy. Some had decades in a spiritual desert, separated from any kind of a transcendental vision, having to rely only on their intrinsic nature in order to overcome the entirety of hell conspiring against them.

I once heard an interpretation of the “dark night” as a depression. This is completely false. The dark night of the soul is not a depression, it’s what humans call being human. It’s the existence separated from the vision of God, devoid of transcendental experiences, but immersed in the world and the senses. Yes, what a saint calls a dark night of the soul, humans call human life. So, while the condition itself is not depression, to a saintly person it can indeed cause depression, but this is not helpful in any way and is to be avoided, because nobody is going to pull you out, and depression causes damage you’ll eventually have to fix, on your own.

It’s interesting that only the Catholics had sufficient wisdom and experience to recognize this phenomenon, although I am quite certain that it is not limited to their membership. The rest, probably, think it signifies some personal failing, a spiritual fall, a sign of being impure and unworthy of God’s presence, and this is why I said that optimistic and positive worldviews can actually cause suffering, because if you don’t understand that such conditions are a necessary part of worldly existence and not a sign of personal failings, it will actually add to your misfortunes.

People reading my books and articles are usually under a misapprehension that I must be in some kind of an ecstatic trance, either constantly or at least while I produce such spiritual artefacts, but they couldn’t be more wrong. I have been enduring a “dark night” ever since 2007 or something like that (I don’t precisely remember); one of the “guys up there” showed himself to me, apologized that they will have to keep the distance until the very end because it is necessary (I didn’t quite understand the reason at the time, but it had something to do with the open fight against Satan, that I started around that time) and went away. I didn’t think much of it then, because I had no idea that it will be decades, and not, for instance, months. The strongest texts I ever wrote were made after that point, from the position of me whirling up spiritual substance from the human position in order to reach what has been taken away from me. Some of those texts were written during sickness or karmic transformations that include terrible suffering. It’s all incredibly unpleasant even with the more-less good knowledge of what’s going on; if I had to endure it while thinking it’s all my fault, that I must have done something to cause it because I live in a perfect world made by perfect God and everything bad that’s going on here must necessarily be my fault, it would have been much worse.

You see, it seems that one of the rules of this place says that anyone hostile to Satan that is incarnated in this place, who intends to undermine his rule and defeat him, can have no help from God, in a sense where he would be guided from above in his actions, or be spiritually maintained by God’s presence that would help him endure. No – those fighting him have to do so in a desert, without “food and water”, without hope or encouragement, using only their own human resources. Satan also has some limitations – he can’t, for instance, directly kill his enemy, because that’s an instant loss. He can, however, go about it in indirect ways – “inspire” other humans, for instance, marking his enemy with something the Romans called “aquae et igni interdictio”, barring anyone from giving access to water or fire to the excommunicated person under a threat of death penalty. This is done using various “scripts” of the world, in order for the order to kill not to be traceable to Satan – it’s cloaked as a command to “not support enemies of the Lord and the good worldly order He installed”. Also, if the saint made fatal mistakes while under misapprehensions caused by Satan fighting back, that would be too bad. If other souls were persuaded by Satan to fight against such a saintly person, thinking that by doing so they are serving God or something, that would also be too bad. Those seduced and deceived souls would of course get all the karmic punishment for such an act, which would also be too bad (insert animated gif of Muttley snickering).

Basically, an open fight against Sanat Kumar, while incarnated here, is designed by the intrinsic rules of the system to be a death penalty by withdrawing all support from the system, and invoking all kinds of hostility from everybody that is in service of Satan. This is a self-defence mechanism built into the word-illusion, and in normal conditions it dooms any attacker. Historically, the effectiveness of this was such that Sanat Kumar got complacent, and, when things didn’t immediately work in my case, he got nervous and eventually made a mistake. It happened to have significant consequences for him. However, the things he set in motion remain in motion until the scripts receive a contravening command from the person in command. If this seat is vacant, a valid command can’t be issued.

Basically, what Satan tries to do to his enemies here is layered – first, try to deceive and seduce, to get them to willingly join their power with him. Second, try to cause them to make mistakes, so that they get in deeper trouble, and also have nobody else to blame. Third, deceive other souls to be an instrument of evil – this is a double whammy, because if those souls end up destroyed, that’s all par for the course. Fourth, deny support from the world system, deny access to resources and energy of the world, deny access to God. In my case, and I think in my case alone, he had to tweak and micro-manage this last one, because things didn’t seem to work – for instance, there didn’t seem to be any apparent result from cutting my connection with God, because I am God, for all intents and purposes – mani padme, if you will. I just don’t have transcendental vision and power. Also, he cut me away from means of earning money (which is very deadly here), and very successfully sabotaged all my business plans, however I saw a hole in the script-logic and exploited it: if people just gave me money, without promise of anything in return, and without me directly asking for it in such a way that it would be a transaction, that would work. Basically, if they volunteered, and I shrugged, this would go under the radar.

What does this say about me, again? That I’m obviously not quite human? True. However, what absolutely nobody seems to understand is that this means that my capacity for suffering far exceeds that of a human – or, surviving prolonged, extreme spiritual agony, at least. I can suffer much more, and for longer, without going insane, evil, atheist or simply dying. Basically, I wasn’t nailed to a cross, because that’s merely one bad afternoon. No – I had the maximum level of suffering that I can possibly take, which in my case is caused by being separated from God, and that was extended for decades. The condition Jesus was in on the cross, immediately before death, where he lamented that God had forsaken him, couldn’t endure it, and died? That moment is every moment of my day, every day. Only I don’t get to die.

That is the condition in which I wrote all of my best work; and I would take my suffering over the greatest joy the entire mankind derives from this world – every single time, every single instance, because in order to be able to truly suffer, you need to miss something, and in order to miss it, you need to be there, in a way. This is why “dark night of the soul” is sort of a misnomer; there is a different way to state this: “the light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it”.