Indefensible

That’s all fine and well, but what if you desire something that can’t be justified as an instrument of work or creativity? What if the thing you want to buy is indefensible?

By that I mean trinkets and jewellery such as expensive mechanical watches, or fancy cars. If you’re really rich it can be yachts or jet planes, but you get the picture; it’s something that makes no sense in proportion to your wealth and income.

The answer to that is very simple.

No.

You need to control yourself and learn to figure out what you’re trying to accomplish, rather than just follow such stupid and financially destructive impulses. Money is precious. It should be seen as a blessing, as something that saves you from terrible things in this world, and who knows what price had to be paid in order for you to get it. I’m not saying you should feel guilty for having money and give it all to poor people, but you should see it as a blessing from God that was given to you in order for you to do something constructive with it. I don’t know what that would be, because I’m not you; it’s always specific. Insulate yourself from harm; be able to actually do what you’re meant to do, since money is fuel for everything else. I also don’t see anything wrong in spending some pre-defined discretionary spending sum on some trinkets that you actually like, as long as you’re not actually depleting the money that’s supposed to be used for constructive things.

Discipline needs to be learned. It’s fine to indulge yourself to a point. Go buy yourself ice cream. It’s not fine to act like a fucking idiot and spend all your money on a car or some other toy. You need to learn to say no to yourself and not act like a petulant child that throws tantrums when it desires some trinket. Your inner child can eat shit.

You need to say no, and you need to obey.

Justifications

It’s easy for me to justify buying gear in hindsight: I just look at the things I did with it and it’s obvious why buying it was a good idea. Conversely, if it just sits there and I don’t use it because, for instance, the lens in question produces poor image quality, or it’s a computer that’s crashing randomly and I can’t risk my work, or a camera that’s so impractical to use that I feel PTSD at the very idea of taking it with me, it’s obvious that buying it was a mistake.

The problem, however, is in justifying equipment purchases proactively. I usually tend to think that my current equipment is fine. If it can’t do something, I can just find my way around it. Autofocus on the camera is slow, so I’ll just take pictures of static subjects. The lens is poor wide open, so I’ll just use it stopped down. I don’t have wide apertures so I’ll use a tripod. Basically, adapt in order to make due with what I have. Also, it’s hard to anticipate if something will be useful in advance, and so it’s especially hard for me to justify buying something very expensive that’s of merely hypothetical usefulness.

At some point, I had to stop my thrifty habits and come to an understanding: had I treated another person the way I treated my photography, it would have been extreme abuse and neglect. Need new shoes? Make due with the old ones, the holes aren’t that big yet. Need a new shirt? The old one is still fine. Need winter clothes? Just walk more quickly, you’ll get warm. Need food? No you don’t, you ate yesterday. Need pen and paper? Why do you need those, you don’t know how to write and you never wrote anything before, so you obviously don’t need it now.

Also, a reason why I didn’t want to buy new gear was because I needed a telephoto lens, and I knew it had to be a good one, and I also needed a camera with fast and smart autofocus to go with it, because my old camera couldn’t track insects. So, it wasn’t just a lens; it was a top tier telephoto lens and a top tier camera, all at once. It’s almost car money. So, after months of considering, I decided to buy both, and use it as an experiment that will determine the value of my purchasing justifications for future reference. If the camera and lens turn out to be rarely used, it will mean I just wasted money and my old thinking was good.

But the opposite happened – both camera and lens turned out to be exceedingly useful, and they allowed me to create lots of pictures I would never have made otherwise. Before, I had like three bees in flight in 20 years of photography. Now, I took five by noon. It was a serious, tangible improvement. Also, I could take pictures of landscape details that were out of reach before, also producing new things that used to be beyond my technical capabilities. So, what else do I want to do that’s presently beyond my equipment?

I realised that we go for walks in the evening and we don’t bring cameras along because we don’t have low light capability, or we try and fail with smartphones. So, I got lenses that are great for what we wanted to do, and again, we ended up with loads of photos that would have never been taken before, simply because we lacked the means.

So, now, in hindsight, it’s easy to say that I need a certain lens. I can show the results that would have never existed without it. I can justify a camera in similar ways. But where does one draw the line from this, because it’s easy to justify anything by saying it might be useful. A second car might be useful. A second house might be useful. Sure. But you need to see the downsides. A second car is a serious financial drain. It also introduces additional maintenance overhead, and wastes both money, time and energy. But what if my car suddenly breaks down and I am left stranded? Well, that’s a legitimate concern, but let’s see how it can be addressed. For instance, you can have an emergency fund deep enough to buy a cheap used car in an emergency. It can also be designed to fit all kinds of other emergencies, because having potential energy in form of money is better than betting on what kind of a dark horse might appear and break your plans. So, have an emergency fund, and have most of it in form of gold coins, because inflation is a thing, and also because fiat currency going to shit is a thing, and that’s one of the possible legitimate emergencies – currency collapse and/or hyperinflation.

So, that’s one way of doing it – have money reserves you can use to solve unpredictable failures and disasters. However, when it’s about things that actually help you do work and be creative, that method is useless, and you need to not just be ready to purchase equipment in case of need; you need to have equipment ready in case you want to use it.

It’s a balance between treating yourself and your work with neglect and contempt, and wasting money on stupid toys you got tricked into buying by watching ads that pretend to be reviews. There needs to be a reasonable balance, but where that exact line sits is a matter that needs to be decided by allowing yourself to occasionally fail and go overboard.

Made with the lens I thought I didn’t need.

Photographic advice

There’s some photographic advice on the Internet that I would like to address.

The first one is that one should take a look at the focal length statistics for his pictures in Lightroom, for the last year or so, and see what focal lengths they are using the most, and then consider buying a prime lens in that focal length. So, essentially, if you see that you’re shooting your 24-105mm lens mostly at 35mm, getting a good 35mm prime might be a thing to do.

The corollary is that you should focus more on what you’re doing the most, and eventually sell the lenses you’re using the least.

I understand the logic behind the advice, but it’s somewhat akin to a minimalist advice that says you should get rid of your winter clothes because you haven’t been using them for almost nine months. Not the greatest idea ever. The fact that you’re using something rarely doesn’t mean you don’t need it. I made some of my best work with a fisheye and an ultrawide, and yet I barely used them at all in the last few years. Sure, if you look at the stats of my pictures in the last three years, almost none are made with a fisheye. Then again, if you look at the prints on the walls of my home, of five pictures in total, two were made with a diagonal fisheye. That’s 40%. It’s a huge percentage for something I use so sparingly. Obviously, it has a place in my kit; I use it rarely, but when I use it, I make a disproportional number of winners. Some lenses are of the kind that really require special circumstances, and if you overdo it, it becomes counterproductive. Not everything lends itself to fisheye or wide angle, or to macro, for that matter. I didn’t use the macro lens much in the recent years, because I overdid it before; however, when I used it, I made a disproportional number of good pictures with it.

Once-a-year lens.

Statistically, I use certain focal lengths infrequently, but I do want to have an excellent lens in that focal length for when I do want to use it. So, frequency of use or a number of pictures made with a certain lens doesn’t really say much. It can even lie. For instance, when I take pictures of insects, I need to use rapid shutter in order to catch them in motion properly. I also do that with a telephoto. As a result, there will be a disproportional number of telephoto shots with long focal lengths, which will overwhelm the stats, which don’t know it’s all one or two motives. What I know and Lightroom doesn’t, is that I actually use a telephoto rarely, but when I do, I use it in rapid fire mode and create a deluge of similar transitional shots.

So, my logic is that if I use a certain lens once in five years, but when I do it will be to make a unique shot on top of the island or a mountain, that is a lens I simply must have in my arsenal. Frequency of use doesn’t mean anything.

Also, the logic of “if you’re not using a certain lens much, why get the best lens of that type?” It’s because when I do use it, it needs to shine. I might not use the 50mm frequently, but when I do, I want to fall on my arse when I see the results in Lightroom.

The second thing I keep seeing is whether one should use zooms or primes. Personally, I have more primes than zooms and I use them more, but I think one should use the best lens for the job at hand. For instance, when I’m visiting Plitvička Jezera, I shoot zooms exclusively; mostly 24-105mm f/4, but also prominently the 100-400mm f/4.5-5.6. I actually don’t use the 24-105mm that much otherwise, but there, I wouldn’t be caught dead without it, because it’s so useful and appropriate for the location. I use it basically twice a year, but I would have to re-purchase it immediately if it were lost or broken. So, basically, I shoot mostly with primes but I find zooms to be essential. You need to be reasonable and practical about those things. If a pin hole in a sheet of paper worked best as a lens for some specific task, I’d have it in my arsenal.

Zoom zoom!

The third thing, and that one is really annoying, is that “real” or “serious” photographers use X, where X is either film, medium format, large format, Leica, rangefinder, Hasselblad or something else. Honestly, the easiest way to know a poseur and a wannabe is to check for such statements, because if their work spoke for itself, they wouldn’t have to augment it with statements about the technology they made it with. I’ve seen very good photographers use literally every kind of equipment under the sun, and I’ve seen incompetent people with more money than brains spew bullshit about special magical equipment more times than I care to remember. Just shut the fuck up with that bullshit. If you think a Leica or medium format will make you a “true photographer”, go ahead. I just don’t want to listen to that crap. Mystical properties of camera brands don’t have the power to make pictures good, unless the camera happens to be in the hands of a skilled artist. You’re not “serious” because you use a Nikon. Using Nikon makes you a Nikon user, not a serious photographer. Developing your style and art over years and decades makes you a serious photographer.

Taken with absolute shite.

Also, perspective is important. People have filled art galleries over decades with pictures taken with cameras and lenses that would be routinely called crap on dpreview and YouTube. You can take excellent pictures with lenses that are objectively not that great, if you know what you’re doing. Also, to quote Adams, there’s nothing worse than a sharp picture of a fuzzy concept. Let’s end at that.

Sony vs. Canon

Since I’m shooting Sony FE, and my wife is shooting Canon RF, and we have quite a collection of cameras and lenses, I’m in a unique position to compare the two systems.

I’ve seen lots of talk online about Canon colour science, Sony colours and so on. It all assumes you’re using in-camera jpeg, and/or native import profiles for Lightroom. Those are the only situations where you’ll perceive any difference in colours. Otherwise, both systems have fantastic colours; Canon profiles tend to produce neutral to greenish colour balance, while the newer Sony profiles tend to have a slight magenta accent, very similar to what I’ve been getting from Fuji Velvia emulsion on film. Depending on what you subjectively prefer, one default will be better than the other. Also, Sony has better auto white balance; their ambient (non-TTL) sensor seems to measure white balance more consistently in difficult conditions. That doesn’t mean Canon is bad – the difference is very slight. The colour quality of both camera systems is amazing. The story about Sony colours being crap date back to their original colour profiles, which were actually nice for getting strong greens in nature photography, but apparently gave garish results for portraiture. That issue doesn’t exist anymore, but the rumours persist.

Canon colours.

Sony colours.

Sony high-end bodies have more resolution than Canon high-end bodies; 61MP vs. 45MP. That sounds like a big difference, but in reality it is slight.

Canon has less pronounced noise at high ISO, but Lightroom AI NR seems to be more successful at removing it on Sony files, at least that’s what I noticed in some difficult situations at and around ISO 12800. With Canon, you can get away without AI NR up until very high ISO values. Sony has a noisier sensor, and the character of the noise on Canon is less intrusive, and that seems to be consistent across multiple models. ISO 12800 is the hard limit on both. After that, the quality deteriorates rapidly.

Dynamic range on Sony is better. In shadows, both can pull off insane levels of detail, but in the highlights, I noticed that I can rescue more with A7RV/CR than with Canon R5. Essentially, with Canon you need to be more careful not to clip the highlights.

Ergonomically speaking, both are good but Canon has a more rounded grip which makes it more comfortable to carry around. However, Sony has better control layout and more programmable buttons, and also better autofocus system, which makes it more ergonomic in actual use. Canon R5 doesn’t have the PASM wheel and instead relies on a complex system with a wheel, locking button and a top display which is hard to see in bright light, which is all stupid and incredibly annoying to use.

Controls on the lenses are not standardised on either system, which is annoying. For instance, lots of early Sony lenses don’t have the AF/MF switch. That’s ergonomically bad, but at least Sony accounted for it in software so you can easily switch it in camera. On Canon, however, there’s the implicit assumption that the switch is on the lens, which is a superior solution, but then they decided to do a cost cutting measure on some lenses, like the RF 16mm f/2.8, which doesn’t have the ability to switch to MF on the lens (instead the switch is control/focus for the control ring), and this functionality is not really available in camera (on the RP body, in particular), so when you trip the switch to focus, the control ring does the manual focusing, except for the fact that the autofocus isn’t turned off in camera and so when you half-press the shutter the AF starts hunting and messes up the focus. Canon has more of such stupid, poorly designed “features” that seem to result from the whole system not having been really well thought out from the start, and instead happened as a knee-jerk reaction to Sony’s mirrorless success.

The lens choice on both systems is excellent. Canon has an excellent choice of inexpensive primes, but its high-end L lenses are overpriced, by a factor of cca. 500 EUR per lens compared to the equivalent Sony GM lenses. Mind you, both L and GM lenses are excellent; image quality and build quality are similarly great. It’s just that Canon version will cost you 500 EUR more. On the other hand, if you don’t go for the L tier, their basic lenses are excellent and inexpensive and, generally, are the way to go. Also, if you have old EF lenses, Canon makes a superb adapter that is completely reliable and non-glitchy, unlike the third party adapters for Sony. So, this makes the Canon RF system the system of choice if you have a large collection of EF lenses that you wish to keep. The problem with Canon is that this is as far as extending the system goes; there is little to no third party lenses for them, but considering that the EF system is incredibly vast, and the modern RF system is excellent and big enough, you are unlikely to miss out.

Sony, however, is the system of choice if you want to mount almost anything to it; there are all kinds of adapters available, for everything ranging from old Minolta and Leica M lenses, to (glitchy, but functional) Canon EF and so on. Also, Sigma, Tamron and others see Sony FE system as the primary system they release their new lenses for, so there is a vast collection of third party lenses, some of which are cheap, while the others are top tier. So, if you want to play with adapting old lenses, Sony is the way to go. If, however, you want rock-solid and reliable behaviour of Canon EF lenses, you should go the Canon RF route.

Vintage Minolta glass on Sony.

Sigma lenses, in particular, are a very good reason to consider Sony, because they are exceptionally good, while being consistently cheaper than Sony’s offerings. Some lenses from their Art series are acclaimed as some of the best lenses ever made, and from what I had the opportunity to try personally, that’s no exaggeration.

Sigma 85mm Art lens on Sony.

Comparison between Canon and Sony equivalent lenses shows almost no difference. RF 24-105mm f/4 L IS and FE 24-105mm f/4 G OSS shows that Sony has better minimum focusing distance, and other than that they might as well be the same lens, for how similar results they produce. They even have the similarly nasty flare when shooting into the sun. This is a general rule – RF 135mm f/1.8 L and FE 135mm f/1.8 GM are optically indistinguishable and might as well be the same lens. Essentially, if you’re in it for top image quality, either system will provide it. It’s just that the top tier lenses will be less expensive on the Sony system, because Sony tax is less than Canon tax because Sigma is breathing down Sony’s neck with excellent Art lenses on the same mount, so Sony needs to be reasonable with the prices.

Canon swallowtail.

Sony swallowtail.

One significant advantage of the Sony is the ability to use single-point AF which locks and switches to active tracking with subject recognition on half-shutter. This gives it a huge advantage when shooting insects, for instance. I don’t know what the newest Canon bodies do, but R5 lacks that ability and Biljana frequently complains about it. The speed of the camera and the autofocus, however, is generally excellent and not perceivably different from the Sony A7RV. Sony just has a smarter AI chip for tracking, apparently.

So, the conclusion is that both systems allow you to get into serious photography at a reasonably low cost, and I would actually prefer Canon for that – a combination of R8 and RP bodies with the inexpensive normal-tier primes will give you incredible image quality for very reasonable money. As you progress into more expensive new top-tier lenses, the story changes, and here the Sony lenses are significantly less expensive for equal performance.

Sony has less consistent lens offerings because they initially made lenses in collaboration with Zeiss, and quality is very much a mixed bag for their early stuff. Some are still good, and some are better avoided. Later, as they bought Minolta and invested serious money into lens development, they became increasingly better, and now they are slammed hard into the ceiling of the best stuff ever made for any kind of money. Also, if you don’t like what Sony is doing in some cheaper lens category, Tamron will be sure to give you very solid options, that usually beat Sony in the lower price range.

Sony puts IBIS in all their bodies. Canon reserves it for their higher tier of cameras. This means that image stabilization will work better across the Sony system, as a rule. In order to get a cheap prime with stabilization, you will need to buy a more expensive body on the Canon system, while on Sony everything from A7II onwards has IBIS.

Basically, both systems are quite similar, but still different enough that one might be better than the other for you, depending on what you intend to do with it, what kind of lenses you intend to buy, and so on. The systems are vast, and professionals, advanced amateurs and beginners alike can configure whatever they prefer in either system. You can get inexpensive but still excellent lenses, or you can get amazing, but also amazingly expensive glass for either system.

Capability

I was thinking about why I have no problem giving up hardware and technologies, surrendering them to the sands of time without sentimentality. I had all kinds of computers before and I don’t care for them one bit. The same goes for cameras, lenses, film processes and emulsions. But they helped me make my favourite work. Why is it that I can give them up so easily?

I did give it some thought, and I came up with a very simple answer. I care for capability. If new technology can give me the same or better capability, I’m fine. Let’s take 35mm photography for example. Initially I shot negative film, then mostly slides, then Canon 5d digital, then Sony A7II digital, and currently Sony A7RV and A7CR digital. As you can see, what I’m preserving is the 35mm format. That’s the capability. I also want colours, dynamic range and resolution. That part is either staying the same or improving over generations of hardware. Every following generation of technology includes and exceeds the capability of the previous ones.

The colours of now.

Yes, film looked great when it was in its prime. Digital looks at least as good, if not better. You just need to know what you’re doing. Digital has greater resolution, less noise, and greater dynamic range, especially in the shadows. One of the greatest advantages of digital is in the deep tones with low light, and that’s something I do a lot.

So, the reason why I let go of film without hesitation when digital became good enough is because digital included and exceeded the capabilities of film to do what I wanted it to do. There’s no nostalgia because I don’t feel I lost capability. Whenever I felt I missed the aesthetics of a certain lens I used to own, I just bought it cheaply on ebay; I can mount it on the new camera via adapter and get the same look. There are, however, digital cameras and lenses I used to own, that produced great image quality, but I don’t feel the need to own them now; the Olympus four thirds system, for instance, or Sony R1. Why? Because I own parallel gear from Sony that makes the image with the same look. Zuiko Digital 14-54mm f/2.8-3.5, for instance, makes images that look almost identical to what my Sony FE 24-105mm f/4 G makes. The modern Sony sensors produce magnificent colours. Getting older gear that would produce an inferior version of the same image style would merely waste money and increase clutter.

You can’t replace people. They are actually unique, and if someone was lost to you nostalgia is justified. Also, if technological capability was lost forever and you can’t get it again with modern gear, the feeling of loss and nostalgia are justified. But with computers and cameras? I certainly don’t miss computers being big, loud, slow and shit. I don’t miss the 1024×768 resolution, and I don’t miss having to burn CDs for video because hard drives were small. I don’t miss connecting to the BBS with a 14400 modem. I’m glad stuff got better. I don’t miss the car in which I had to hand-crank the windows down and manually lock all four doors, and I certainly don’t miss it having 54hp. Did I do important things with it? Yes. Was I very glad I had it at the time? Yes. But all my cars since have been better. I never lost capability. Even the fuel consumption, which was the strong side of my first car – 6.5 litres of diesel per 100 km – is exceeded by my current car; 6.2l of diesel per 100km. The new car, however, actually has an engine, and it has dual zone climate control, satnav, electric windows and door locks and so on. It’s also much safer. Literally zero capability was lost, therefore zero nostalgia. But if technology degraded and I could no longer get the capability I once had, that would be a shame and I would feel that.